the aunties and uncles came to my house for a short meeup yesterday. they realised that i`ve put on some A LOT of weight and could see black rings around my eyes. they made such a big hoo-haa bout that &i had to explain to them that i`m bothered with some things. honestly, i do realise that i`ve been eating a lot. more than usual. &i think that explains the increase in weight. as for the dark circles around the eyes, i don`t know bout that. maybe, because i`ve been having sleepless nights, thinking of that unexpected situation happening yet, again. way deep down, i feel so hurt. i can`t help but think of various ways to solve this problem though i know, it concerns not only me, but the rest too. i thought i need someone who`s willing to lend me a listening ear, a shoulder for me to cry and cry non stop but i doubt i`ll be able to find the exact word to even express what i`m going through right now. seriously, i think none of them will ever understand cos they NEVER EVER will go through this situation, looking at their whole background now. really, i`m NOT KIDDING. okayy, i feel so shitty now. god, help me !!!

p.s: shaz and syasya, i`m fine. ok, bedek ! heh!