Let me tell you...

Sometimes what we see might not be the actual thing. It`s better to kn0w the real story before you assume something.

Promise .. is a declaration that one will do or refrain from doing something specified : a legally binding declaration that gives the person to whom it is made a right to expect or to claim the performance or forbearance of a specified 2 : reason to expect something ; especially : ground for expectation of success, improvement, or excellence

It`s true that the girl used to promise a lot of things. Unfortunately, as YOU know she doesn`t fulfill it. However, there`s always a reason for it. Doesn`t mean she did not tell YOU anything, she don`t bother with what she promised. She had her own reasons. All that was just kept to herself until now. Do YOU even know that?

When she left YOU.. no! that sound so wrong. In fact, she tried to move on cos YOU didn`t show that she was worth being there and in the end, that made YOU decide that she was the one who left. She was still hoping that both of you will be back together but that didn` happen. She even begged and PROMISED that she`ll do anything to gain back your love but none of that happened. Yes, she promised again. At that time she really mean it and YOU thought she was trying to sweet talk. YOU were afraid that she might not fulfill her promises again. However, YOU didn`t give her the chance to prove everthing. YOU didn`t allow her to show to YOU that what her promises are purely promises and not lies. YOU thought she was just being selfish to get YOU back. Nah, that was just a misunderstanding.

During the few months when both of you were together, YOU told her the things that you hate bout her. She tried to change to be a better girl, daughter and also gf. But YOU didn`t see that coming. Even after both of you went separate ways, she didn`t stop thinking of YOU till now. Everything was just as normal for her. But seeing YOU with someone else made her realise it has ended long time ago. Now, YOU told her that everyone is against you and that is wrong. Everyone was just trying their best to make her move on far far away from her dreamland. In any case if they ever showed that they were against YOU, she sincerely apologises.

Is it too much to read now? Hang on..hang on. Just continue. Bear with me.

All she hope from YOU is that there won`t be anymore hard feelings, grudges or whanots between the both of you. She really hope YOU and her can be frens like normal people do. She really wish that YOU can see what she`s been through and willing to understand the real reason for her to not fulfill her promises. Once again, from the bottom of her heart, she apologises if there`s anything that made YOU feel hurt or dissapointed. Also, she`s happy for YOU now that YOU are happy with what you have. She`s very happy for YOU.

Truth is, till now, she feels so guilty for not fulfilling the promises. She even realised that she`s the one to be blamed for evertyhing. If the promises were fulfilled, things won` be this way. YOU won`t change drastically. YOU won`t change to be a very different person.

I, ramizah bte ibrahim, typed this entry on behalf of her. She wants no more fights and cold wars between the both of YOU and the people around YOU and her. Like what YOU said to her, "yang sudah tu sudah."

If there is anything YOU wish to clarify or settle(chey!), YOU can contact her cos she`s willing to answer all your questions. (Accept the reasons why she didn`t fulfill her promises earlier)

That`s all for now. If she feels there`s anything she wants or feel the need to explain, she will let me know and i`ll repost a new entry together with the above text.

"SHE was the first YOU loved and also the first to love YOU.. but she will be the last to stop loving YOU even though she kn0ws YOU already stopped loving HER."

Written, sealed and send by Ramizah. =)