Small girl in a small world

This world is indeed very small.

The other day while I was on the phone with Niraf, I found out that his one of his bunkmate was my old friend back then in secondary school. Last week, we bumped into his friend. They talked about the recent Piala Panggung competition and when he mentioned 'Fadhil', the first person that came to my mind was Naqiah. I mean, what's the possibility that they were talking about Naqiah's boyfriend kan? But indeed they were talking about him because when I texted Naqiah the thing they mentioned about him, Naqiah said it was really him! I was like laughing literally when I saw her message. Not only that, they were even mentioning about TP's Dikir group and suddenly, Achiok's name mentioned. I don't know this guy but I am very sure he is Rad's boyfriend. Kan? Wah piang! Then check check balek, Niraf used to be in one of the group too but he stopped going for the trainings and all since he was busy with NS, what else. Okay part tu, aku yang slenger tak tau.

And... what's up with korang korang ni semua lock your blog? Is it the in thing now? TELL ME.

emotions running wild

sometimes we just can't please the people around us, not even our own family members. no one believed when I said that i am a stranger in my own home. Every single step I take equates to mistake. I don't mean significant steps like making a huge decisions, i mean steps like choosing to place my belongings on which part of my room. yes, in my own room. Steps like this can just spark an argument between my family members. it sounds ridiculous but that is really happening. and when i chose to spend more time outside because i don't think i can tolerate all the nonsense at home, they labeled me as 'someone'. if screaming doesn't help, discussing and pouring my feelings out to them doesn't either. at times, i don't think expressing myself here or to anyone is needed because it just doesn't help a bit. simply because it won't change the situation at home.

....and i sort of know the reason for all that has happened and is still happening.