Swine

Everyone should already be aware of the case of Influenza A (H1N1-2009) that has been spreading islandwide. Obviously, it has affected almost everyone everywhere. Eventhough Singapore is a safe clean place, it has confirmed 26 new cases bringing a total number of infection 194 as of today, 24th June 2009.

If you read the news, the case is getting wilder. More and more cases are reported lately. I am one of those who thinks that I won't be directly affected by this case as long as I do not travel to the affected countries. But obviosuly I thought wrong. We won't know if we could have came in contact with anyone with or suspected of the Flu.

Just last week, a friend of mine was sent to CDC when he was supposed to book in at Maju Camp. Subsequently, my own boyfriend was sent back home from Camp to be quarantined for a week together with his family. It all depends on his condition during this period to decide if he needs to be quarantined longer. So far, more than few of my friends have been quarantined at home too. It isn't just about spending time at home, not reporting for work but still get paid. It's not as easy as it seems. You have to report you status / condition a few times a day. Very troublesome.

For the record, Niraf didn't allow me to go out as well except to do my tutoring. Right, thanks! In other words, I am also quarantined. WTH.

you and me; some things are just out of our way

"I thought I loved him, but he had to break my heart for me to know what true love really is. In the end, it's all the "only if" that is left."

When it happened months ago, I questioned myself to why I changed that way and what was the main reason for it. I had no answer and in fact, no one had the answer to it. Still, I continued to be the girl I never thought I would ever be, the girl that I have always hated. One thing for sure, both of us will get hurt and it's obvious now isn't it? I took the huge risk into ending it because I don't want to go deeper in our sins once it becomes an addiction. Honestly, I am tired of living in denial and waiting for something which I am not sure of. I am sick of pretending to be fine when I am not and by just being in this illegal affair itself. It has been fat hope for me and probably, this is the best way for You, Me, Her and the people around us.

I apologise for my sudden decision and let me remind that the decision is solely mine. Sometimes, some things are better left unsaid but if you know me very well, you know what I need most. Sometimes things in life doesn't go the way we planned it and that's when you have to re-plan.

Shithole

This is very depressing.

It doesn't give any excitement at all.

In fact, I breakdown too much for it.

This has made me shoved away almost everyone coming in my way.

Don't say I am thinking too much into it.

It isn't funny.

Don't say you understand it.

It isn't helping.

Don't give me motivational words.

It is very pressurizing. Very.

Life's been very harsh on me lately.

I can go hiatus on this space if I want.

But can I do the same to my life?

Take me out from this SHITHOLE.

Benefits of silence

Don't ever try to act nice because you'll end up being a fool, baby. Didn't know I was the only girl who made you feel so inferior all these while. Hahahahaha.

This LK actually goes through the longest way to get in contact with me but failed. When she actually bragged and contradict herself, "I have been with him for 7 years and we've been through a lot of shits together but right now, I need you to get back to him." Made me laughed real hard. I know you have been with him for 7 years and I was with him a year plus after the relationship officially ended.

Maybe she expected some cliche reaction from me but I am sorry that is not happening. "Actually you do know that I am no longer with him, am I right? So I don't see the point I need to get back to him though you are being so sweet by giving up your love for us to be together. Plus, I am with someone else now."

Obviously, LK doesn't understand the words that were coming out from my mouth and said she could feel the love I had for the ex and as contradicting as she was earlier, she questioned my love for our ex. How ironic. Still got the cheek to tell me their 7 years moments. Not interested, please.

Next thing I knew, she said stuff that a small little 5 year old girl will think those are words coated with sugar plus jelly beans. Just imagine she came up to you and say,
“when he does something wrong, kiss his forehead”
“when he get his asthma attacks, please go to his house and take care of him”
“when he is sick, feed him”
“when he wants to go out, iron his clothes for him”

In case she isn't aware, those are stuff that ALL girls would do to their loved one, without being forced or told to do so.

1. Which part of I have got someone else did she not understand?

2. If she really loved her 7 long years relationship, why should she give up her love just for me?

3. Even if I were to go back to our ex, why in the world would I follow her style?

No, I don't want to be taking over her place and be LK number 2. And if some of you seem to remember the scene from somewhere, then maybe ‘I’m not single’ might refresh your memory.

Anoi, Maman, Alim and I had a good laugh right after my conversation with LK ended. We shall see what happens the next moment. Maybe not, because all of us (every single one of our friends and families including the acquaintances) knows it all.

Job!

I was busy applying for jobs online when I receive a call from an unknown number.

Now, I have an interview at 330pm and I am so nervous!

Wish me luck and pray that I won't make a fool of myself.

Twenty three

So long overdue but since I am so free right now, why not kan. A day after my Graduation, I rushed down to Kak Ita's place to collect my orders. I am very much delighted to see the results of my request. It was splendid!



It was the birthday boy's request not to celebrate his day. We even argued the day before cos apparently he refused to see me when I asked him out. I had to tell him that I needed to see him badly before I leave for my holiday and he fell for it. White lie, what else.



While we were talking, he saw the big bag beside me, opened it and then went speechless. His reactions are very much similar to mine, very obvious and dramatic. Member muka shocked abes to see the content of the box. Don't know shocked to see what I got for him, shocked to see the colours or shocked to know how sweet I could be. HAHAHAHAHA.



Kept thanking me non stop hits and asked if he could just keep it forever without eating. Siapa mau gi layannn. Went up to his place and the proud boy showed his Mother. His mother pun apa lagik, took multiple shots of the cupcakes and asked me umpteen questions about it. Funny funny funny bunch.



As he requested it to be, there was no celebration. We didn't get him anything else and didn't make it any special apart from the cupcakes. After each of us chose our very own alphabest from the cupcakes, we had our dinner together where his mother cooked for all of us.



P: Okay, sorang satu jer. Tak boleh lebih. Yang lain semua aku nak simpan.
Mizah: Tkmu merepek eh. Biarlah dorang nak amek.
P: Tk boleh. Semua I punya. I'm the birthday boy.
Mizah: Rilek sudah. No celebration so birthday boy or not, doesn't matter.

P: Takde ah, you kasi I aper. So ni semua I punya. Sorang satu jer.



All because he thinks that the cupcakes are so beautiful and sexy and it would be a waste to eat them all. Tsk.



Heart shape.

Exposed. Rated: Burok.



Like father, like son. Don't you guys think it's carbon copy?



And let's thank Ika for spending time with his brother at home that day. I am sure it means a lot to him. The other siblings missing: Nazir and Hakim. The other wasn't in the photo.



His irritating and fighting partner. Both of them just can't see eye to eye and will confirm, irritate each other, ALL THE TIME.





Please give me some credits too lor for coming up with this idea after brainstorming so much and if not for baking, at least for requesting the cupcakes according to the way the birthday boy would love it.

We really hope you enjoyed your day very much...





and love the time spent with your Charlie's P's angels.

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And I have no words to describe Nizam sometimes. He just texted me saying that he met with an accident and that the tonner that he drove, actually "fly".

Nizam: Aku accident beb. Yang peliknya, aku selamat.

When i continued reading the message, he should have known how i reacted. Mind became blank seh but if he's infront of me, mintak kena tampar all angle je ni mamat. I don't know if it's your use of words or you are just trying to dig out my dramatic reactions. Still, call me once you are out of the MC. Wait, does this means your trip to Taiwan is postponed? *kening naik2*