Assume lagik la kan...

[EDITED] "Destroying your relationship and being a bitch (cos i was labeled that) was not even close to fun in the first place... it hurts badly that no one can understand that. I know i was the one who contacted you first but it was just to ask for my sudoku game back. I know they thought im always disturbing your life but you and I knows what happened la eh. &guess what? I now realise changing into my old self back doesn't really require your help no matter how much i love you cos that doesn't matter anymore. thanks a lot huh. Now, if i were to really go (not answering your calls or replying to any of you smses) someday, i need you to know that im willing to accept whatever criticism that others have on you and myself and i need you to know that it was genuine since the start and i was sincere all while."

I'm still trying my very best, my friend. Just give me a little bit of time and i'll be done harassing you. in fact, i think i'm half way through. i really hope, by the time im done with everything, i wont have to face anymore of that in future. &i really really hope that things will be back to normal. Amin..! [/EDITED]

F to the a to the d to z to the l to the y

Fadzly ! You better reply to me like now (!!!) cos i need to know the truth. Idiot seh, dah talk lame2 then suddenly you go missing. Ape sia .... Purposely nak make me wait and jadik org giler kan? Cepattttttttttttt tell me if not, i'm gonna spill your secrets. Hahah! Ok, maybe not. I'm not that evil. Urm, if you don't tell me, i'm gonna errr ...... alaaaa just tell me la! Pantat betol! Ahh, i know! If not, im gonna tell Rudy whatever he's not supposed to know. Amcm? On per? LOL!

Need you here, badly.

I'm very certain that I am not confused.
Totally not at all.
So i don't see the need for me to explain myself.
Okay, what am I saying again?
LOL.

How would you feel if you've been waiting for someone to come online since the past few months and he did only today ... but only to receive no nudges, no greetings or anything from him?
I am totally dissapointed in you babe. I know you are not that type of person who would do this and no matter how much people say, i'm not gonna believe them cos you have all my trust. I believe you will be back, someday. I'm not sure when but I will be here reading your letters every single day and waiting till i get a definite answer. I know it's not over .. Okay dah, i better stop being emo. Hehehe!

This is so random ... Mother and I were having a chat just now when she asked about Littleboy. Now, who is littleboy? Go check out my entries for early last year. I believe his photos are there too. LOL! Gosh, mother must have missed him, huh? Why him seh? So out of the blue la!

P.s: Still remember how we would smile cheekily at each other? It's still fresh in my mind. Everything. =)

School = Office

" Amcm? Gerek jadi kakak2? "
- quoted by kak ita.
Hahaha. There's always the bad and good part to everything. Of course, the seniors (wah, I dah 3rd year student kepe! lol.) of FBI students who have to wear formal and smart casual to school every single day look very smart and professional. But imagine, going to school where almost everyone in the school is dressing up like normal student does and we, FBI seniors look so professional with all these office look. Everyday, without fail, we attract aunties, uncles and also freshies who gets a lil surprised with our attire. Some freshies even wondered if they have to wear that in future. LOL!


Since the start of the new semester, I get tired really easy that I sleep a lot. A LOT. I'm really sorry to Nizam and some others who I didn't reply to their msgs or calls cos i am always way deep in my sleep. Hehehe. Whenever i have nothing to do, i'll be sleeping. Yesterday, we had our 5 hours long break and went over to yana's house to watch some amazing race. But then, i end up sleeping, leaving the rest watch. Basically, i sleep sleep sleep a lot right now and i just realise that i'm becoming worse that bebeh. hahahaha! Even nizam said that i am always sleeping. See lah, you think i tak tau malu kepe. hehe. &with the new heels yg telah menyiksa kaki aku smpi kene jalan mcm makcik2, it's not helping either. It's making me all tired and weak cos my leg sekarang feel so numb and look so burok swelling...


Other than that, school has been okay. Who am i kidding? It's only the first week and there's always the following weeks to spoil the semester.


Now i think i should stop cos tutorial is starting soon. &after this, i'm meeting my lovelies! Wooohoooo!

Dissapointed

Others always say I think too much.
Some say i'm pessimistic.
While the rest think that i should loosen up a bit.
ME? I think that experiences and past events that made me the way i am now.
Yes, i think a lot.
I'm sometimes pessimistic and i know i should loosen up a bit.
I even know i should be more hyperactive and cheerful than i used to be.

The other day i talked to someone whom i've treated as my elder sister. Not only is she full of words of wisdom, the fact that she understands me most of the time make me feel so lucky to have someone like her. Of course, i do have my cousins to share every single stories and sorrows that i'm going through but then, i believe that i should not burden them too much cos they themselves have their own set of problems. After talking to her although for a short while, i believe she made me see things in a better perspective.

Boy, i'm glad that we do contact each other back after some time of me MIA-ing. Now that you know the reasons for it, i guess i'm happy with it. I think we are much happier now, don't you think so? Well, we are forever laughing at our own mistakes, reminding each other of things that we should be doing, cheering up one another and many more which we didn't really do back then. I finally understand what they meant when they say, "it's better this way than that." Right now, i would really agree to it.

Then again, you never change. Even if you did, you become so much worse. So worse that i am unable to describe it in words now (maybe, with my ever so banyyyakk expressions? lol.) For whatever that you have done, it has and (still) hurt me real bad but i know, time will heal every single cut and wounds that you've caused me. I don't know how long time will take but i'm sure it's worth the wait. It won't be long till you see me standing up and running again.

Just so you know that what you're up to right now isn't worth working on cos you know it will hurt not only me but also the people around you. Yeah, i know you keep saying that they are the ones who keep hurting you but look at the different angle. I think the only one to be blamed is you. Just you. You made that decision so you gotta bear the consequences dude.

Now that i'm trying my best to stand up with the help of someone *winks*, i hope i can really make myself proud cos i guess I HAVE BEEN THE STRONG GIRL THAT I WANT AND EVERYONE ELSE NEED ME TO. So people, a round of applause for me? Hehehe!

On a totally different note, i really wish all the best to you girl. You've been such a letdown, promises after promises but you still wouldn't change to be the way you should. You know it's not healthy to be living this way and it's so dangerous to be doing that cos at the end of the day, you'll be hurting yourslf the most but you are just so degil gilerrrrrrr to be nice to yourself. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Nowwwwwwwwwww, you better call me cos i know you're having your break.

P.s: I love you, b!

I'll be the happiest person.

This is unnecessary but i've created a livejournal a/c and i will be switching to that once everything is done. Right now, it is still in haywire cos i simply have no time to give my fullest attention to it so i'll just stick to blogger for the moment.


So what have i been up to the last few days of holiday? Well, i've been spending time at home and only going out when i have some errands to attend to. chey! macam paham! hahaha. &tmr, i nak gi shopping (lagik!) pasal my tutor sumer dah giler. they expect us to wear smart casual on every mondays and wednesdays and full formal on every tuesdays. "exciting" kepe. so i hv to spend my money just to buy baju and skirts and blouse and pants cos their definition of smart casual is totally different. tsk!


speaking of school, the timetable's out like finally kan! this will be the last timetable i'm getting so i better "treasure" it ehhh walaupun it suck nak mampos! monday lesson start as early as 8 and ends at 3...tuesday paling gerek kepe. start at 8, end at 7la sia! full force nye, amek kau! dah gitu takpe, ade 5 hrs break in between. baek kepe! confirm aku gi maen football or air puck kat TM jugakk....maner lagik kan. hahaha! then wed they give chance siket. start at 10 end at 3... then the following thursday and friday, MP! not menteri or macam paham but MAJOR PROJECT! kaooooooooooo.... when i was young, aku cam very excited when kakak2 and abg2 poly mention major project but now, it's my turn and tell me ow excited i should be. sungguh tk excited betol la seh!


aku rase aku should be more excited abt this pasal sumpah aku excited bole naek plane (tk pernah naek plane la oi) and i know it will be exciting giler nye. Our course are going on some study trip but since most of us dahbes CDS, we can take it as the last holiday before attachment starts. gerek kepe! i really wanna go!!! PARIS AND LONDON KEPE SIA! Sape tk excited, ckp ngn aku! Heheheheheeh. but then, i don't know if i'll get to go ke tak cos it will be a selected case. If i got selected to go, confirm gerek nyer i tell you. &why aku cam talkative today eh?


& sis, i really wanna thank you for the heart to heart talk we had early this morning which was much of a coincidence because sayang wants me to edit something in the blog so i merely did. but then, the talk really helped me A LOT! cos right now, i feel so much better la sehh. Thanks eh!


&&&latest news, nizam tk jadi masuk ns this september.... pasal ... he must enter earlier, JUNE kepe sia! Abih member sedih pasal have to cancel chalet and birthday celebration. HUAHAUAHUA. kesiannn.. then somemore, he sad cos no one to send him off. AWWWW, sedih.. takpe, later i ask the whole puteraPUTERI to send you off okay? =)

Right now, my mother mcm tk betol already ketawer sorg2 abih kuat pulakk tu. Why? Pasal die tgk carttoooon. Ape siakkk. stop it sehh. Hahahaha!

Wah,byk bbl, byk type...tgn saket, mulot pun penat. So, let me end with TAKDE KENE MENGENE EH! (ahahahahah, that's my fav)

WHAT!

I must say today is a very weird day for me. I started off by accompanying the auntie to the hospital for some checkup then i sent her off at home. So, i called my mother to inform her that i'll be staying over at the auntie's place cos i'm too lazy to head back home but something struck me, i took my bag and went straight home after that. Took a short nap when abg alid came to rescue my room's light. but then...it couldn't be saved. hah! so yea, i thought i had to live in some club cos mother bought me a red light mcm kat pub. hahahah! so the whole time, i was dazing and couldn't get my mind straight. all i know was that, i'm worried abt something which i'm not sure of and that thing is really making me nervous and all. Then, in the evening, i received a msg from a friend which really made me feel more nervous, mad, upset and dissapointed. mixed feelings, you see. Minutes later, abg alid came with his family to do another rescue session to my light and this time, it was saved! wooohooo! well, i was still in a daze at that point of time and so i didn't really entertain the guests. like wth! i know. stupiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid mizah! sorry eh korg2. heh!till now, i still am feeling the same way and it really hurts me like a lot. damn, what's happening?!

see, this something is making me write this uneccesary entry and make me feel so lost and useless and worthless. like siiiaaaak betol!

Help, anyone?

Yea, yea. I'm really sorry for the lack of updates. Trust me, i've got a lot of stories and photos to share from the short vacation to the last minute plan to every single day outing. i can't stop now. damnnn! hehehe.


Anyway, i'm like totally in a dilemma. Chey! Like real ajer. LOL! I've been thinking of switching to eljay cos i really like a particular feature of it since like eons ago but then, to leave blogger is like..so sayang sehh. &if i were to switch pun, i dont know what should i put it up as. preciousanecdotes.livejournal.com? Kaooooooooooooo.... that sounds weird. K, this is where i need help. HEHEHEHE!

Happy 19th birthday, patwick!

The whole of last week was packed with events. We had a surprise party for fadhilPATWICK at Costa Sands chalet where he was shocked to see himself in a chalet (where he assumed he was at someone's house. LOL.) after they took off the blindfold for him. It was realllyyyy nice to see the puteraPUTERI and some other ngee ann schoolmates back again.






Sadly, i was still sick that day so i was not of much help to edel who needed us to decorate the place and start the fire and all. But then, i still think that i helped a bit cos i blowed most of the balloons which was super duper nak mamposnyer susah nak blow where the rest sumer give up blowing and rudy being the very first person. hah. Other than that, I was sleeping like a pig most of the time cos i swallowed (yes hajar, i can swallow pill alrdy, no need to break into pieces anymore. haha!) two panadol extra's and one pill which i'm not sure what it is from the doctor.









By the time the food were ready, the girls forced me out of the room to eat with them so i also excited cos ade makanan then lagikpun, i cannot tolerate the guys anymore. I was sleeping but i could still hear them making so muchhh noise in my dreamm the room. Heh. So we ate ate ate...then fadhil got sabo-ed by the guys...and then, i luper ape jadik. Hehehe.


Since i was sick that day, more nonsense words kept coming out from this mouth. What was the word for the day? KOTEK. hahahah! Yeah, so what if it sounds wrong...i meant the other word but this mouth keep mentioning differently. Hehehe.


Pastu bebeh was sweet enough to drive me home cos i was so weak to even walk that i looked like a shitty zombie. Thanks a lot eh! Oh yea, thanks to nizam and the rest too for the concern. Don't worry so much, i reached hom safe and sound. Heh!





Up next, Vacation photos! Do come back.. ! =)


It's the 52nd day i'm having this fever + flu + cough and there's still no sign of getting better. Sigh.

Lina's 21st.

Last Saturday, my brother got engaged to his girlfriend (obviously la kan, ape aku mepek)and we had a mini celebration for him. Only a few were invited cos my brother didn't wanna make it as grand and even i was shocked to know abt the whole engagement thing.

Later that night, Anoi Jaja myself and Kak Sita's family went to surprise Lina since it was her birthday the following day. So we surprised her at 2330 where it was all quiet at her residence and 4 people singing the birthday song would be more than enough to wake almost everyone in the neghbourhood (soorrrry makcik!!) HEH!



By the time the clock striked 12, we sang her another birthday song and the weird thing was, the five of us had different timing on our watch so we sang 5 different times for the fun of it. LOL!

Then we got ready to have our slumber party...where we turned violent (or was it only me? hah!) and evil and nasty. I betol betol tk tau ape nak ckp, let the video do the explanation and you guys just watch it la okay? K baguuuuusss!

But then, come to think of it. Got a lot of censored ahhh. I wouldn't wanna embarass Lina for the rest of her life. Hahaaha!

After all that censored part, we calmed down and got all excited for this particular song. So mehpik. (hahahah! spelling kenal tak?)



By then, we were all mabuk by the pulling hair session, singing and screaming session so we did our own things and end up sleeping which i heran cos i was supposed to sleep on the bed but i dont know why Jaja end up on the bed instead. See, mabuk alreadyy.

The next morning, we purposely woke up earlier than the birthday girl and did this...



She was shocked plus annoyed pun ade. Hahhaha! But as if we care, spray more ahhh.

Then, the three of us were made to bathe together cos we were late already. So, cannot negotiate, we also agreed. 1 nak pakai shampoo, sumer nak shampoo. 1 nak pakai shower cream, sumer nak shower cream. Kecoh la siaaa.

Then, (okay kasi I count dulu). Urm, if i kire correctly la eh, the 13 of us headed to Airport to dine at Swensens to celebrate her birthday where we found a whole lot of other families celebrating birthdays too. Cool kape..!

&what would special occassions be like without photos kan? Hehehe! Sine it was her birthday, sumer org wanted to take photo with her. Wah, famous kepe ehhh lu.



That budak kecik on the extreme left very funny. We were all taking photos mcm from different newspaper company, then he showed that face mcm sleepy like that or was it bcos he cannot tahan the flash? I tak tau la tapi kelakar ahh.

After which, we walked around T3 and by the time, sumer org penat liao from all the walking so kiter pun balekkk and tidorrrr. Woke up, mak Jah buat Mee goreng then Acoi called to meet so Anoi and I suggested TM cos kiter nak tgk someone. Eh no, make it 2 people. (Abg Ramly and Abg Mcdee) hehehehe!



&pardon me eh for this kental entry. I sungguh ngantok dot com already and plus, this fever is making me all crap. Tk cayer tanyer Anoi, Bebeh, Babe and sape2 yg dah irritated ngn aku coz kalau aku demam, aku bbl merepek. Seriously merepek, smpi Anoi nak cekik aku biler die call aku tadi, smpi Bebeh thought aku dah tk siuman. Ah kan, aku dah kater. Ubat doctor ni mmg tkleh buat aku baek gaknyer. Sebelum aku makin tk betol, aku belah dulu la eh. Selamat la korg! Mintak ampun la pasal entry ni ehh.