wassup yaw?!

Life`s been great except for some minor problems which irritate the shit out of me. Other than that, it`s all fine and perfect. I think there`s nothing else I could ever wish for.


Initially, I had a date with rudy at itas(mampos aku kalau hajar tau aku nak kuar ngn scandal dier) because I planned to discuss some important issues with him but the plan was cancelled, as I had to attend to some urgent matters at home. So there goes my only chance to have a serious talk with him at the most appropriate time. Haighz !

Bebeh has been complaining that I`ve been very fierce these few days and she even complaint to eugene. Poor girl. heh ! The fact is, my mind, which has been, depressed all these while, needs a break. I learnt some new things from hajar when I had a serious girl to girl talk (which I`ve not done for eons) the other day. She sort of insert some sense into my fearful and weak mind.

another family gathering

HAPPY 3RD YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO BEBEH AND FAISAL ! !

i`m happy for the both of eu.

faisal, u better take care of my bebeh.

if not, u kn0w with who you have to face.

sunday was super fun and great ! the night before, i slept quite late cos i had to help mother and nenek to cook all the food. so yea, the very morning, all the aunties, uncles and cousins came. we had movie marathon after eating and playing some games. first movie was Qabil khusry qabil igam. it`s a must watch movie. i give it a 4 out of 5 rating. it startted with hilarious scenes but in the middle and coming to the end, it gets a little bit touchy and sad. so the uncles planned to see who is the first person to cry and everyone was like trying to prevent anyone from seeing them cry. haha ! so funny. then, afterwhich was horror movie. i didn`t watch the first few scenes cos i was busy helping the mother heating some food but i heard the cousin screaming and shouting like mad people. that made me not wanting to watch the movie but in the end, i watched it though. so i was sitting somewhere near the kitchen while the rest was sitting in the living room. after some time, i heard a loud hissing sound. i thought it came from the television but when i heard properly, it came from the kitchen`s window. so i didn`t wanna think of anything stupid so i just ignore it but the sound gets louder. next thing i knew, the uncle turned to me and asked me where that sound came from. so i just shrugged and the next thing i knew was that my ear felt so hot. tsk ! scary......

give in? or give up?

I`ve been holding back the tears due to the problems that are hitting me now. I know i`ve done a lot of things to solve it but it just comes back again and again. Honestly, it`s killing me softly. I have no idea how else to handle it. A friend lend me a listening ear a few days back and i`m thankful to her. she said that i should be stronger than i am now. she also added on that i`ve been a patient girl all this while and i shouldn`t just stop and give up where i am now. well, she read my mind. i just thought of stop giving in and in fact, give up on everything.

after i hung up on the phone with her, i decided to start with my normal routine whenever my spirit is very low. a point where everything that i`ve done creates a different impression on myself and the people around me and at another point, i feel like i`m at the end of the road and giving up seems like a good choice.

yes yes, i decided to on my laptop, click on the three songs which does not fail to boost my sprrit and dance to the beat. hah! well, the first MUST song is come with me by sammie. this song makes me feel like as though that special someone is singing to me. his voice is just boost my strength laaa. the "....don`t give up, girl" make me realise that that someone will always be there for me.

next up is over it by katherine mcphee. this one makes me think that i`ve settled all my problems and i`m done with stressing myself up. i even sing to this song and in any case, will add on with my own lyrics.

last but not least, sexy love by ne-yo. i know that this song is sang for a lady but who cares kann. after listening to both songs above, i`m already fixed and recovered from that upset mood. now, listening to this song, i dance to the beat. heee !
&after that, i`m all set to be the cheerful mizahh !

speaking of cheerful, i know i told mat c0ol that i would post an entry about some reasons why i changed. however, after much considerations, i decided not to post that entry. very much sorry to mat c0ol. i just think that telling you the real reasons might spoil everything and we have to start from the scratch again.

school is starting SOON !

yea yea, i`m sorry for M-I-A-ing.

well, i`m back with more stories and hot gossips (yea, rite). excuse me, i`m just a bit hyper today. heh !

backtrack to wednesday, i had pre-sem briefing and before that, we had to meet the freshies. i`m glad that there are more malays in our course now. during the briefing, i was more to staring at the lecturer than listening to what she had to say. when she announced the people who had to change classes, i decided to give my most attention to her. while listening to if my name was being mentioned, i heard "nurul". so i heard the next thing was, moved to VG1. bebeh is moving into my class ! nyehaha! owh, &a particular teacher talked to me. well, she has nvr liked me. then, she asked me how i`m doing etc etc. it was so funny that i told everyone bout it. lol!

&now, the time table is out. everything seems fine except that the lectures are super long hours and i hate tuesday cos i end late but have only 1 hour break. dang! i`m glad that i end at 6 for three days cos i get to spend more time in school and monday is perfectly love cos it`s all lectures. we start quite late and ends early. yipeee! at least, it wun be adding on to the monday blues. heh!

ok enough bout that. moving on, HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY TO THE BIG BRO AND AUNTIE(i`m not sure of her age though)! Well, the whole family including the aunties and uncles and everyone larh are celebrating their birthday on sunday at my house. &trust me, nenek is super excited that she`s going to cook a lot of food. dang! say hello to putting on weight, mizahh!

oh, speaking of birthday, i haven`t get anything for the birthday boy and girl. i think mother got the wrong date.

she bought me a necklace and earrings from AVON. lol! thanks mother !

memory stick finally out !

AHHHHH ! ! I`m very happy ! ! Very very happy !

For the past few days, shaz and i have been trying to take out the memory stick that got stuck in the slot in my laptop. we tried every way but failed. rosli tried to help on monday but failed too. asking help from zur was somehow "useless". i called him up and told him the situation and he laughed like a mad dog and saying how silly i can get. then after listening to his laughters and some advices, we tried but still fail to make it come out. &today, rosli saw me with my upset face and this time, he tried his very best. i took out all the tweezers and pins that i have and handed him. in the end, he tried using the nail clipper and yay! it came out. hahahahha! i`m so happy. i even shrieked in his ears. LOL ! shaz, now we can sleep soundly already. hahahaha!

anw, i`m so tired. my eyes need more sleep, my body need more rest, my mind need to relax. arggh. since bebeh and acap are out of town, rehan and i are supposed to take over them but that rehan purposely off his hp the whole day. i managed to get through his line only at 7.10 this morning. i screamed at him telling him to work cos my body aches like a lot but he refused to cos he said he had tuition. yea rite! byk kau nyer tuition, sumer org tk percaye laa! even yani said soooo. i just feel like strangling u, u know?! but no, i should just beat ur score! heeee.

&mat c0ol, the entry that maybe u`re looking for will be posted later or tmr ok. and for the time being, calm down ok? i`m sorry bout ytd.

bebeh! i miss euu. make sure u come to me with the souveniors ok? haha! jk.

taufik batisah ! &hady mirza concert!

this whole week, i have to work full shift for the weekends. in fact, i have to work during weekdays too. why? cos fathin and acap are out of town. they`ll be back this coming friday so for the time being, i`ve to take over them.

so ytd`s work was fun(it has been fun all awhile). the people who work was lina, hajar, shaz and myself. &there was hairul too. we made fun of the security guard again but most of the time, we were making fun of each other, making stupid jokes and commeting about the event held there. even kak zana joined in sey! haha.

anw, taman warisan or also known are helding a concert on labour day(1 may 2007) where taufik batisah, hady mirza and some of the artists will be performing. the tix price is 25 bucks. a bit expensive but u`ll be able to enter the museum and arts exhibition for free. on top of that, u can participate in the lucky draw. worth it kan! if u want the tix, just come to malay heritage center. heee !

so then after work, the three of us; shaz, hajar and me were hungry so we went to mcdee to have our lunch cum dinner cum supper. hajar suggested that we should eat mcnuggets and share it equally among the three of us. but in the end, she end up eating 10 out o 20 of it! eh wait, that does remind me of something sehh.


well, after o levels, iffah hajar and i went to mcdee at airport and she ordered the 20 pieces mcnugget but yes, u got it right, she end up eating more than 10 ! haha. history repeated itself, huh?

...now all of you know how she gets that chubby cheeks of her ehh! lol.

&today, we`re working again. the girls are now at my house. we were so happy today and i`m not sure why. we sing to katherine mcphee`s over it on the way to the busstop and even add on with our own lyrics. haha!

my sayang; siti hajar bte abdul razik

i may not have mentione how much i love sayang. &if i have already happen to mention it, i`m sorry but i would like to mention it once again. i love sayang more than i love myself, serious.

we got to know each other since sec 1 where we were in the same CCA which is concert band and in fact, the same section; clarinet. well, i thought she looked like one simple girl who is friendly, kind, caring and etc. however, i was wrong. she`s just not a simple girl or rather, she`s not just another random girl. she`s fierce, stern and strict too. chey! but still, we became friends and got closer when we got into the same class in sec 3 and even in the same subject; f&n. haha!

since we were the only two malay girls in 4r7, we became closer despite the geng tk geng session. lol ! we went through ups and downs together. there was once our report got rejected by ms chu just because our alignment are similar. i remember the both of us broke down in front of ms chu when she told us to re-do. like hello, u would cry too if u have to re-do the whole report which consist more than 20 pages. from there, we didn`t talk to each other and did our own task individually. but some time after that, we were on talking terms already.

to cut the story short short short, our secondary life ends. but still, we are still friends till now. i love her and i know she loves me a lot too. ahah! however, sometimes she can get so dengki that she will do anything to bully me. but then, of course i won`t let her bully me just like that. i will play along and bully her at the same time.

if u dun believe what i said, then maybe what i`ll show u will prove it.

the other day, we were working the same shift. i had to work at the gift shop and she had to tend te museum. we were dead bored cos the internet connection died on us so we browsed through her photoalbum. we found a photo which is so insignificant and then she came up with an idea. then again, her idea always involves making fun of me. however, we did carry on with her idea.

basically, betty is not wearing specs anymore. no more curly hair and the braces are gone ! lol. oh & yes, she looked a bit darker now.

ya ya. have a good laugh. that`s what sayang wants kan. laugh larrrr!

but then, i had the chance to laugh at her back cos ytd, we went to courts in search for something. so bebeh was too engrossed playing the PSP while sayang walked around. then, she came upon a very wide screen flat tv and tried to play the game.

yes yes, u may not see anything funny bout it but let me explain. she didn`t even know which button to press and she was "enjoying" herself. what makes it more funny was that she was staring at the screen so close that she forgot, there`s a sofa behind her. haha! *u`re supposed to sit, relax and enjoy the game laa* haha. i took that photo and handed it to bebeh. well, she had a good laugh too. &in the end, she gave up trying to play the game cos she just can`t move to another part of the game and since, a guy was observing her playing the game. HAHAHAHAH!

well, that`s it. i was just trying to say that i love my sayang more than i love myself, serious!

&sayang, i wanna tell you soemthing. i`m working again today. nyehaha! &i`m proud of myself. why? cos i managed to sell 2 things to the tourists. yay!

Breeeeeks!

( for more photos, click here!)

It was fun fun fun !

went out with faddieCOUSIN and shazDARLA to celebrate their belated birthday. Before that, met shaz at parkway since she said it`s been a long time she came over. So, we were walking to one shop and there`s a large crowd over at a roadshow. While we were walking, a young lady approached us and both of us just sighed. We thought we had to entertain her with her surveys but we were wrong. She wanted us to be in the mary chia`s beauty contest. Like omg! So she tried to convince us that we won`t appear on tv and things like that and we told her that we`re in a rush. All I could hear from her after that was the crowd that came was just not suitable for the photoshoot. Haha! Like as if we suit gitu sehh.

After walking around, we went to meet fad. Poor cousin, she looked so shagged and sleepy from doing all the homework. So anyway, we went to have our lunch at breeks. The three of us enjoyed ourselves at breeks; the waiter & the special greetings. After eating, we hibernated for a while since we were too bloated to even walk. After hibernating, we walked around marina square and went to different shops to look for fad`s wallet. We ended up at esplanade`s library where shaz got crazy and started camwhoring. We went separate ways after that and on the way to the mrt station, fad bought her wallet, finally ! hee. She had to chose the third one simply because the first two were dirty. &in the train, we had fun. We got so crazy taking pictures of each other that one guy even offered to take picture of us. Haha !

I just hope cousin and shaz enjoyed themselves that day and I really really hope they like the present I gave them. It was a last minute present, though. Heh !

supp paper !

whee ! i passed ! i passed !

i passed the supp paper !

whee !

i`m glad that i passed.

if not, i have to repeat the module again in the next term.

phew !

working now.

iffah came over since she wanted to see our work place.

now, this place is like so kecoh.

after this, we`re going shopping and i`m excited !

ytd, i didn`t get to hear from baby r. &he`ll be away from today till sunday. that means i can`t hear from him for 3 days ! ahhh tidak !

okehh! i`ll update more later aite. hee.

re-BOND-ing

i had my hair cut, AGAIN ! I had my hair rebond, AGAIN !

Yesterday was very tiring. Went out early in the morning to meet shaz. Followed her to tamp cos she had some errands to run. We had to go to two places; tamp and simei. By the time we wanted to go to simei, it was raining heavily and we had no choice but to walk in the rain. We were drenched, of course. &when we reached simei, it wasn`t raining there so we looked like two girls who just came out from the swimming pool. Haha ! when she`s done doing her errands, we went to tampines interchange to grab some food. After which, we headed to st 11 to meet my cousin, lina. Shaz and I were too engrossed talking bout our Saturday plan that we forgot t alight at the busstop. So, we had to alight at the next busstop. We end up walking from simei to tampines back. Lol ! so I had my hair done for 5 hours and during that period, we had so much fun laughing at other people and at our stupid jokes. Oh & of course, I had to listen to their whining of when i`ll be done. Haha ! after I was finally done, we headed to century for our lunch cum dinner. We had still some time to spare so we went to watsons and shopped till we dropped. We end up with a big hole in our pockets. Hehe ! then, we headed home and I was in time for my daily dosage of baby r. heeeeeeee ! I love you baby!

&today, i`m working full shift cos yani and fathin couldn`t make it. working during the weekdays is so much difference compared to working during the weekends cos weekdays, the sales is always very low. So acap and I just slacked all the way. then, a group of students came and I got so panic when the teacher had paid but another teacher said they should be let in free. I turned to acap who was standing beside me and gave him my worried look. Haha ! the next customer came and asked us bout haji lane and being us, we answered nothing but we`re not sure. Lol !

Oh &rehan, u won`t believe this.

I broke your record !

look carefully !
895,851 !
now you cannot say i`m slow.
You cheena legong !

don`t bother. i`m only dying.

I could feel my heart tearing apart.
I could feel my heart shrinking.
I could feel the tears rolling down the cheeks.
I could feel and see but I can`t seem to understand the situation.
I`m just confused.
I don`t know why I`m feeling this way.
I don`t know why I`m mad.
I don`t know why I`m upset.
I don`t know why I have to feel all these.
I have no idea what is going on.

Ok, let`s do some recap.
I know I was mad.
I know I was disappointed.
I know I was relieved.
..all because of that silly DAY.

But I`m not sure how that silly DAY turned out to uncover the whole lot of feelings I had during this holiday; the wound which won`t seem to heal.

Sometimes, I even stop and ask myself; why must it be always me who feels all this? Why must it be only me? When actually, this whole thing involves not only me but another party too.

I`m tired of thinking.
I just need the other party to realize it too.

&fathin, I have something important to discuss with you. Maybe..hajar too. I want to express everything. But I don`t know when the right time.

I`m just dying now.

Help me, please?

Baby r, I love and miss you !

Vintage shop-edited

Had work today. The security guard bought murtabak for rehan and myself. We shared the murtabak together and by noon, he was already hungry again so he called lina to ask her to buy something for him. when lina came, she bought a chocolate for me. hee ! lina was then craving for something sweet so rehan and i went out to buy some sweets for her. but we stopped by a new opened shop where they sell all the vintage stuffs. the shop look so cool laaaa ! i fell in love with it once i step into the shop. heehehehehe!

so after work, the three of us went to that shop again ! haha. kiasu sehh. then rehan started telling us that he`ll come back for sure to buy the jeans and shirts. after which, we headed to starbucks to chill. i dun like starbucks la ! i want coffee bean ! but..they bully me. they force me to go starbucksssssss. ahhhh tidak ! so anw, after chilling, we went window shopping for a while since the three of us are all excited because we are getting our pay very very soon ! whee.

after all the excitement of the things that we want to buy, we decided to head home. all of us were very shagged but rehan was still smiling cheekily. &when we laughed at him, he said he just love today because of the jokes that we had. haha !

&here`s the photos for the day !

This is the shop i was talking about. so nice kan?

*&i think i take good pictures. haha ! rehan, u know i know eh ! lol !*

this looks cute kan? hahah !

i can`t help posting this photo. he just look like some lion trying to pounce on its prey. lol !

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"Hey you.. do you care what`s on my mind?"

"I feel so stupid. I am so confused. Could you please explain things to me?"

&sayang, i need to talk to you. i find something amiss. how how how?

birthday shoutout !

there`s so many people`s bday these days.
it`s boring to see each entry with all the different faces and wishes, rite?
so i decided to delete all the birthday entries and put them all in one entry.
now, tell me i`m nice.
hee!

25o3o7 - Kak ifah
27o3o7 - FaddieCOUSIN
3oo3o7 - Lina
31o3o7 - ShazDARLA
o2o4o7 - Fadhil

Happy birthday to all of them ! May all your wishes come true. Best of luck in everything that you do. Stay pretty and sexy always okeh. Alamak, fadhil seh. takkan pretty and sexy siak. Takperlahh. Pretty and sexy to edel la eh ! haha!


faddieCOUSIN

I love love love you okay? &i miss you truckloads too. sorry i couldn`t make it yesterday.

Lina

stop it with you "project" ehh. haha !

ShazDARLA

i`m sorry i couldn`t accompany you but i hope i cheered you up by yakking with you till wee hours yesterday. hee !

Fadhil

i can`t make it to ur surprise la today cos i`m working but i hope u like the cake that we bought.

Much love,
mizahh <3

p.s: sayang, call me can? i have something important to talk to you.