A day at work.

Rise and shine people. It's already 10! It's so unlike me to blog at this hour but i'm at work what. I shall blog since i've got nothing to do, anyway.

I'm quite sleepy since i can't get to sleep nowadays. Toss and turn. Toss and turn. By the time i get to sleep, it's already sahur. Tell me how unfair it is. Very!

Anyway, i came early for work today. Then, i met the security to ask for the cashbox since i couldn't see anyone in charge. However, the security let me enter the office to look for any of the officers. I entered the office and found no one there but..wait a second, suddenly, someone greated me with his loud good morning. Of course i was shocked laa. Then i greated back and guess what? He didn't know where the cashbox was. So, i had to look for someone who could help me find it. Just in time, hairol came to rescue me. But then..he also couldn't find it. HAH! I had to wait for like 10 minutes for the cashbox could be found. Haix. Have i said this earlier? I'm gonna say it again. Hairol rocks my socks laa! =)) Okay back to the work story. I wanted to on the ticket computer so i had to press and hold the button. I did what was taught to me but..the computer just on and off immediately. How irritating is that! I tried calling bebeh but she didn't answer. Being me, i get ever so excited-anxious-kanchong-and whatnots. I tried my own way of on-ing the computer. N yes, the computer did function properly! EH, why am i bragging with all these stories? Sorry people, i'm just in the mood to type out everything.

Okayy..I promise this will be the last thing bout work for today's entry. I promise. As i was sitting down, the telephone rang. Not mine. But the office's. I picked up the call and i heard an angmoh's voice. I swear i couldn't get what he was saying. By the 2nd time i asked him to repeat what he said, i just had the urge to end the call. However, i know i shouldn't do that so i listened carefully to what he said and finally get it! He wanted to know bout the cultural show and at the same time, talking bout a shop. Weird laa he. But still, i salute him for tolerating me. Wa caya sama lu ah bro!

Tidaaa!(following mira's language)I'm done. I told u that will be the last thing i will be saying bout work for today's entry. I never break my promises. LOL.

P.S: Bebeh, ignore my missed calls. It's bout the computer but it's fine now. Anyway, how's the work yesterday? Tiring?

Random.

Random posts.

The family are getting on my nerves nowadays. Two days ago, the brother accused me of something stupid. Yesterday, the mother blamed me for everything that has happened. What do they take me for? Some punching bag? I guess so.

I dreamt of someone whom i thought was not worth thinking off but I can't recall what he was doing in my dream. All i could remember was, he was just standing infront of me all awhile. What was that for?

Anyway, i'm a bit sick with my hair now. I don't want it to look so straight. I want to perm it again. I found a few pictures with the hair sooo perfect. I think i'm gonna perm it that way. But, i know very well it won't look good on me. Haha. Oh well, just to satisfy myself. Gatal ah aku ni. First, straight. Then, perm. Lepas tu, rebond lagik. Sekrg, nak perm pulak.

I wanna thank the bestie and mat k0ol for being there for me 24/7 without fail. Korang duer best laa~

Khaii, dun be so stress up laa. I kn0w u will be able to achieve the A that u want. Malay nak A eh? LOL.

MAMAKU CINTA PAPAKU.

I find this thing funny so i'm just gonna share it here.

If it's not funny to u then that's it laa.

Yesterday, i was in the living room cleaning up something.

Then, there's a loud sound. A siren.

Mother, being so kanchong as always, ran towards the door and said, "bapak kau kat dlm lift."

The brothers and i had no idea why she became like that.

But then, i realised something.

She thought the lift was giving out that siren sound.

N since bapak was in the lift, she get so panic.

So the brother said, "bunyi tu dari tv la"

Then, everyone broke into laughters.

Nyehaha.

The mother was so paiseh that she said," aku sayang bapak kau rupernyer."

LOL.

AWW.

She's my momma.

Then, after breaking fast, something unexpected happened.

Shall not eleborate on that.

But, i wanna thank mat k0ol for helping even though he was busy in school.

Heh.

Thanks ah boy!

=))

Die.

Can i have one simple request?

Can i just die for the whole month of hari raya?

No, it's not that i hate that month.

It's just that i'm very sure that i won't be celebrating it like other people.

I'll only go out during the first day to the grandmother's house, a few auntie's house and that's it.

Ever since mother started working, she have no time to visit the friend's or relatives' house during the weekdays.

As for weekends, she said she will just stay at home to entertain the guests.

However, i know that's not her intention.

Her main reason is: she wants to sleep all day long.

Now tell me, can someone make me die for that month?

Please.

You make me wanna LALA~!

I'm at work now.
Kak zana called me while i was sleeping.
She wanted me to replace another girl since she's on mc.
I agreed since i've got no plans for today.

I can't help laughing at the funny thing that happened as soon as i started work. Rosli came in to the display side while the cleaner was mopping the floor. Here's the converstaion.
Rosli: Kiter nak buat gift shop at kat sini.
Cleaner: Huh? Coffee shop?
Me: *gives a very weird look to rosli*
Rosli: Bukan la. Gift shop la.
Then, the security guard came and said," aku tau la nga puaser..tk yah ingat pasal makanan."
HAHA.
Soon after, there were tourists walking pass. The tourguide was holding a flag with number 1 on it. Guess what rosli said?
Rosli: Kau nak tgk boxing tk? Baru round 1 ni.
I didn't see the tourists walking.
Me: HUH?
After realising the tourists were there,
Me: Oh..haha. Ajak ah pakcik security tu.
Rosli said to the security guard: Nak boxing ngn aku tk? haha.
N the security guard laughed showing his rongakness.

Eh, why are u guys not laughing? Not funny ehh? Alaa, i find it funny seh. Ok whatever. At least something to bright up my day at work.

Anyway, let's talk about SI. Although i dun really watch it every week, i think hady has got a good voice. Very vibrant and futhermore, he's versatile. The plus point is, according to the bestie and the rest, he's got the looks. Okay, i shall agree with them. Heh. I watched he performed yesterday n i must say, he deserves to be the next spore idol. Yeah, i think he already fell in love. Haha. Jonathan's performance was average yesterday. He was a little too confident of himself. The way he tried to get the audiences' attention and all, was a bit too over.

Now, i shall stop saying bout jonathan before his fans flood my tagboard and send me emails. Heh.

Oh well, i seriously have got nothing to say for now. The reason of me posting this entry is just to kill my boredom. Can someone please come online and chat with me in msn or just msg me at my hp. I need someone to talk to. Oh please..

Bebeh must be sleeping/watching RCTI.

Sayang must be..err...busy entertaining her loved ones. Haha.

Sebelum aku bbl mepek, baik aku blah.

Take a l0ok at me now.
I'm so happy.
I'm so content.
I'm always with my smile.
I am one happy girl now.
It's totally opposites of what u thought and expected me to be.
No more empty spaces.

I miss my mat k0ol!

Derest fren aka mat k0ol,

i miss u terribly.

Why isn't there anymore msgs/calls?

Why isn't there anymore quarells?

Why isn't there anymore advices?

Why isn't there anymore whines?

Why isn't there anymore secrets?

Well, i kn0w u are busy with studies and her but..i want my bestfren. CAN?

Oh dang! I sound like as if i'm begging.

Monday 0nwards

I shall blog of what happened from monday till today. MONDAY. Went johore with kak sita and family and also lina. Went to one of the shopping mall and lina and i got separated from kak sita. She wanted to l0ok stuff's for her house so she t0ld us to go anywhere we want. We will meet like 2 hours after that. So, lina and i walked around the shopping mall and then went in to one of the shops.

Owner of shop: Tk skola hari ni? (not schooling today?)
Me: Err, tk. Nga holiday ah. (err, nope. having holidays)
Owner of shop: Ohh. Baru balik skola la ni? (ohh. just end school, is it?)
Me: Tak..dah holiday. (no....having holidays)
Owner of shop: Oh eh? skola maner? (oh really? which school?)
Me: Poly..
Owner of shop: Kat pasir gudang? (at pasir gudang?)
Me: Tk la! Kat spore. (no la! at spore.)
Owner of shop: Wah pandai seh gi blaja kat spore. (wah so clever. study at spore.)
Me: Alaa. Malasnyer nak layan. *walks away*

HAHA. Maybe i l0ok like a malaysian eh? Maybe, maybe. Yes, cos i l0oked very slack. With jeans, t shirt and i bun up my hair. Heh. Then, both of us went to another shop and there's 2 guys who wanted to ask for our numbers but we ignored. Minutes after that, we realised that both of the guys were stalking us, wherever we go. All i c0uld think was the freaking incident that happened to me a few weeks back. Of course i was very scared that i stand near the security guards and walked into all the shops. But still, the guys did not give up. Then, they couldn't see us so we made our way to the highest level just to hide from them. However, when we wanted to go to other shops, we saw them again. Then again, we played block shopping mall catching. Heh.

TUESDAY. Nothing much happened except that i talked to bebeh on phone for very long. I kn0w it's no big deal but we have been talking 3 days consecutively for more than 2 hours! Wah, dah mcm matair eh. Haha. Well, i kn0w she loves me very much.

WEDNESDAY. Went back nas cos ms lina wanted to talk to the graduating classes regarding the courses in TP. She told us to come since we're like the seniors or rather, since we're a student in tp too. After that, met sayang. Supposed to meet her at 3.40 but i end up meeting her late. Heh. I was late for only 35 minutes okay. Not 45 minutes! Hah. Ate at burger king and then went to play swing at sunplaza park. Then, i decided to do some shopping. While i was l0oking for shirts or pants that i could buy, guess what sayang did? She danced! She said she can't listen to those type of songs w/o dancing. Haha. AHA! Then, it's a must for us to chill at CPF building's mcdonalds. Haha.

TODAY-THURSDAY. Bebeh! Remember what i told u yesterday? Remember the thing i whined bout? Yes, it happened for real today. HE came to the auntie's house and as soon as he his feets touched the house, he commentes something bout me. However, i just remain silent and smiled. Then, while i was eating alone at the dining room, he commented something bout my family and that made me broke down. I stopped eating, washed my hands and packed my things. The auntie went into the room with lina and she hugged me tightly. The auntie t0ld me to ignore him. I cried even more and that made HIS daughter to realise that. I dressed up and then, decided to go home. On the way home, i saw that little dick. I just felt like shouting, "That little dick is a (fill in the blanks)!" I thought of msging that dear fren telling him that i saw that little dick and wanted so much to kick that little dick's balls but i couldn't get myself to stand and face that little dick. THEN i realised that dear fren is avoiding me,seriously. =( Anyway, i was rite that the little dick is only like sec 1-2. He's from bedok view sec. Sheesh!

Dear fren, i miss u badly.

Ramadhan is in one week's time and i am so excited for it. Heh. Because of that, the family made some gathering with the aunties and uncles and cousins and everyone laa. When there's us, there's also food. Brownie and sorts of food were cooked.

After a few hours, some of the cousins were getting bored. So, we went to the nearest playground to play "crocodile2". Gosh. I played that game when i was like primary one. Considering the fact that i've not exercised for long, i was panting after 10 minutes of playing. After about an hour of playing crocodile2, we rested for a while and so, i came up with an idea. Not say a brilliant one but all of us agreed to it and i can say we did a g0od job.





Well, the first video was our very own hindi video clip. Firstly, me and anoi were sitting at a playground. We were bored and then suddenly, ayul come to "save" the day by singing for us. heh.
The second one is more to a silly kind of video. Just enjoy viewing it laa. (if u enjoy it) Nyehnyehnyehnyehnyeh

After all those fun, i received a msg from a fren. We had some "argument" and i know there's nothing i could do. Well, shouldn't elaborate more on that. Whatever it is, maybe we are no more frens. =(

P.S: SITI HAJAR ABDUL RAZIK, i'm really sorry. I can't meet u tmr. Really2 sorry.

Thank you so much, dearie.

First anf foremost, lets thank SITI HAJAR ABDUL RAZIK for the fabolous skin. I like it so much. No, i love it.

Yeah, remember the last entry i said i was bored staying at home?

Right after i post that entry, the auntie called saying that she wants to bring me along to johore.

What else for?

To EAT!

whee~

ERK.

I realised recently that there's quite a number of people who is trying to move on.

Don't u agree?

I'm like one of them but..i've moved on, happily.

With no worries.

Heh.

I shall help the other frens move on too.

Till then, i'm outta here.

It is already the holiday for god sake. I need to hang out with my friends. I need to go shopping with the cousins. I'm no more in primary or secondary school that i have to complete the holiday homeworks during the holidays. I got no homework to be done. Can i at least have a G0Od holiday after such crazy weeks of studying for the exams? Sometimes i regret telling the parents bout the incident. I'm not allowed to go out of the house if no one accompany me. I'm not allowed to open the house door if no one is at home. I'm not allowed to go back home late. I understand that the parents are so w0rried for me after what happened but that d0esn't mean i have to face all the "p0st-caution" of what had happened. Am i right? Nah nah. Am i right or am i right? Zur, kenal tk this sentence? Nyehaha. Excuse me for being harsh on the parents but i don't get it why mother must keep reminding me the incident. This morning befor she left for w0rk, she told me that she would be going to the auntie's house after she finish work. I wanted to tag along but she didn't allow me to go. Reason being she doesn't want me to go there alone. Bleah. I sh0uld stop talking bout the parents, i think i sound so harsh or rude.

I really hope that i've helped shaz somehow or another. Poor her. She d0esn't know if she should move on or c0ntinue waiting. From what she t0ld me, that guy never fails to give her h0pes when she tried to m0ve on. Well, at least i helped. Cheer up k girl. =)

OH! Have i mentioned? I played monopoly with bebeh yesterday on phone. Haha. Try guessing how we did that.

It pays off to be honest.

I want to thank fathin, hajar, iffah, khaii and zur for understanding, suggesting, advicing and laughing at me. It just feels so great when something really unexpected happened to u and u don't know what to do to handle it but to know, the frens are there for u. I'm really grateful to fathin for being there for me, even when i'm being such an ass. To hajar and iffah, i'm really surprised both of u were so shock and thanks for sending me to the interchange. Yes, they wanted to know everything and just as i expected, they were very2 shock. Heh. Khaii and zur, thanks for the wise words, motivation and sms-es that i received just to check if i'm okay. You guys have been a great help in making me accept the fact that happened to me and handling this situation as calm as possible. =)

Anywaysss, went out with hajar and iffah just now. Watched little man and it was very funny, indeed. Haha. Well, i wanted to cry at the end of the movie but..i just held back my tears. Ok that was lame. So; after that, we went to eat and of course, i had to make a lot of confessions. No, no. It was more to they wanted to know everything that has happened to me. Heh. So; i had to let everything out and of course, they were so shocked. When it comes to hajar's turn to tell her story, i managed to tell her somethings that i learnt. Not being a pro but just wanted to share what i learnt from all my experiences.

OH! Have i mentioned? I went to suntec with kak sita and lina yesterday. We had to spend 15 minutes walking from marina square just to get to suntec city. Yes, that long even though both shopping centres are just next to each other. This is all thanks to the IMF thingy. Gates and police's checks all over the place. Dang!

PUBLIC DECLARATION: I MISS SITI HAJAR BTE ABDUL RAZIK! =)

Kok lip just called me and he told me not to AA(attract attention). Dun be so short and chubby. And i think that's lame laa, boy.

First of all, i want to apologise to that someone who ask me bout the A,F, R story. You know who you are. I know i shouldn't even type out those stories since i've got nothing to do with it. But hello, this is my blog. I can type out any stories that i wish to. Okay? But still, i'm really very sorry. I don't wish to put a password in my blog since bebeh don't like it. Can we just end it here? I won't say anything bout u n ur life. N can u tell ur frens to stop it too? Deal? Well, thanks!

Remember i mentioned that i was going to work at Apex tower? Oh well, i quit. Bebeh and i quitted. First, we wasn't sure of what our job scope is. The managers and supervisors tried explaining to us but they were beating around the bush and we understand nuts bout the job. Then, we realised that the company had wasted a lot of our time. Next, we are supposed to give them our timetables cos we have to come for work after school time. Nonsense! We want to work during holidays only laa. So; we managed to postpone the launching of our projects. Heh. Met bebeh's uncle and t0ok taxi home. Told bebeh to alight me at the place near the cc.

Alighted and i walked to my blk. While walking hm, something unexpected happened. A very scary and unbelievable story. Not scary bcos of ghost and it is so unbelievable bcos it is the last thing or no girl would ever think it would ever happen. I was so shocked that i didn't manage to do anything but just give a sharp stare and push away everything. Eversince that scene happened, it just keep coming flashing back to me when i sleep, eat, talk and do everything. Imagine how hard i have to live and accept it. To the people who kn0ws; bebeh, khaii and zur, don't spread it eh? I don't want to gain any sympathy.

P.S: mat k0ol, thanks for your concern. It helped me one way or another. I shall have someone to accompany me go anywhere now. Heh. =) N! Nas will be back real soon. Tmr is already sunday! Whee~

Four days of not updating. Of course, there's loads and loads of stories to say out but i don't know if i will have the strength to type out. Heh.

It's really amazing how words can change people's feelings, perspective and whatsoever. A guy fren tried to brainwash me but i didn't gave my fullest attention, at first. Soon after that, i realise the words that he was saying, makes sense. So, aper lagik? I tried to fight back his w0rds. Yeah, he was "blaming" me for all the things that have happened to me lately. After so much of fighting and advicing and suggesting, i finally decided to move on. Yes, only now. Well, the words that he said was all true. "when u're down, u happen to think of the dark side of life." That was a tiny weeny part of the conversation. Anyway, when i t0ld bebeh bout it, she got jealous! Yes yes. She said,"ohh..biler aku brainwash tak jalan ehh." Haha. Yes, she's jealous. No bebeh, u're still the best laa! My very best.

The next day, minutes before i break my fast, i looked at my phone and realised i got 2 missed calls. I said to myself,"maybe, someone wants to offer me a job." Then, a minute after that, i received a call from someone offering me a job. Hah! Omar gave my number to her fren, who was looking for someone to work at the place she's working. She told me to meet her at tanjong pagar the next day and i could bring a fren along. So; i brought bebeh laa. She was the first person who came to my mind. I ingat her every second tau! I thought of asking sayang too but i remembered that her mother didn't allow her to work very far. THEN! Khaii msged. He wanted to meet me cos it's been a looooooooooooonggggggggggggg time since we last met(besides on his birthday). Well, then we planned to go out and eat to break my fast after the interview. At night, while i was about to sleep, a fren msg again asking my condition. Well, i kn0w he's sincere to get to know me but..i'll just accept him as a fren, not more than that. Sorry..

Wednesday! Met bebeh at tamp mrt station to go to tanjong pagar. We were supposed to meet arfah at 2.30 but we reach there like 1 hr earlier. Haha. So, arfah suggests that we go for lunch first. No no, not us. Only bebeh since i was fasting. Then, made our way to the Apex tower with the help of directions from arfah's colleague. Reached there and had to complete the form and watched some video. BLA BLA BLA. Went to city hall to meet khaii. Supposed to meet him at 6.30 but i was early again by an hour! Gosh. N guess what time did he reached? Okay. I had to wait for him for 1hr 45 minutes! That means he reached at 7.15! Since it was time for breaking fast, i had to eat only sweet. When he reached, went to ljs but it was full so went to sakura instead. He still can fight with me of where i should sit. AHH! Since he was late, i made him give me 10 GOOD reasons for his lateness but knowing him, he gave me 10 GOOD LAME reasons. Crap lah he. After eating, my fren went off since she got other plans then both of us made our way to..err...the shopping centre to...go toilet. Haha. Then, went esplanade and i was so jakon with the shelters and lights. I was like some caveman. LOL. After an hour or so sitting, bitching and cam-whoring, we went off home since we were so damn tired. I went home to mak jah's hs since my clothes was at her hs. Reached at the void deck and met a lot of people. Haha. Met lina and hafidz after that. What was the first thing he said when he saw me? "Ija, muke kau makin kecik." (read: ija, ur face is getting smaller.) Totally crap!

Today; thursday. Met bebeh at tamp int to eat and have our passport photos. Then, went to Apex tower again to have our job scope but something happened and so, it was cancelled. We only had some explanation of the company's main business. Went off with bebeh to city hall. Bebeh went to meet fezal while i went tamp to meet mother.

I'm done for the past 4 days entries. What else? OH! Regarding my previous entry bout A, F and R. I know i said it was hard for me to accept the fact but..that was days ago. After the brainwashing, i find it no problem accepting the fact. Besides, i'm happy for A since A got R. I'm happy for F too since she's happy with her life. I don't want to be on some 'cold' war with anyone anymore. Please, I won't let anything bad to happen to anyone as far as i could handle it. Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to make everyone like or pity me but i'm just trying to explain my feelings and intentions. Friends, everyone? Heh. I really hope i've made things clear ehh. If there's anything that any of u are not happy with me, just beep me at my phone, tag or even e-mail me. ok?

Hot news!

My brother just came back from work.

No, no. That is not the hot news.

The hot news is... he found an mp4, which looks exactly like ipod nano.

WOOOT!

P.S:

Khaii,the Mat k0ol;ice-cream, cheer up eh! Sunday is just 3 days away.

N****,i'm sorry.

No p0int turning back

Just received one shocking news from a friend. Shocking cos i didn't expect it to happen this way. I've expect it to be..the other way since YOU badly say that those things will have to happen. Now, you tell me what happened? Oh well. He's totally over me. So so over me.

Okay. Let's name the boy as A. The girl as F and the other girl as R. Here it goes. A and F used to be in love. In a matter of time, they broke up for some reasons. A t0ld me that F is everything to A. Imagine how hard i had to listen to A's story of A and F. Yes, it is very painful cos A used to be my love. Okay, i know i shouldn't go out of point. Now, let's continue. Even after they broke up for *counting with so much enthu* a few months(7 mths for now), A kept telling me everything bout F. Yeah, F is like the wanita melayu terakhir. However, as i went online just now, a g0od fren of F told me that A is happily attached to another girl, R. That g0od fren of F whom is also my fren, told me that A said that A's not over of F but befriended R because A wanted to TRY to get over F. A thought this is some kind of fairytale story, maybe? Oh well, i wonder what A's story after this.

Now, what is happening? I'm just wondering how F is doing even though F's totally over A now. Oh god! What is happening? I don't know. I don't know. I guess i shouldn't bother too much bout A. But..but..i'm still shock laa..

Anyway! I still have khaii who will listen to those craps that i will say. Yes, i will say all kind of craps when i'm down. Heh. Meeting him on thursday, i guess. AND i shall irritate him. Nyehaha. Bebeh! I need bebeh for now. I want to cry now. Can i please? BUT..i guess she'll get bored listening to my stories again. Why? Cos she dun want me to ever talk bout A anymore. Oh well, i shall not call her. I shall not cry. Anything for her, bebeh. =)

forgive me for my weakness and stuffs,

i don't know why but things are not so easy without you. -_-

Say like u mean it.

I don't see him often cos he always spend most of his time in camp. I don't talk to him that often cos he prefers to observe rather than talk. Now, i admit i miss him. He's in thailand right now. No, not for holidays but he was sent there for national service la, of course! I miss him that bad that i decided to sleep on his bed for 2 days! It just feel so weird to know that i miss my own brother but well, everyone misses their own family members whenever they'are away. But still, i can't believe it! I've never been so open and frank when it comes to family, hokay! Anyway, he's been there for 2 weeks or so. Wait! That means he'll be back by next week!! Yay! I wonder what he bought for me. Heh.

Mother commented something bout me today. She said i looked different. No no, not my looks but my face expression. She said i look troubled. Is it? Hah! I didn't realise that but what i know was that, i've changed a bit. Yes, i'm not sure if it for the worse or better. I used to be a very kecoh girl. I will talk non stop that there will surely be someone to stop me. But now..it's all so different. I don't talk all the unecessary things and i feel awkward bout it. I prefer to keep all the silly,sad and funny things to myself. I'm not joking. Can someone please make me be the old ramizah? Please..i want to be the kecoh girl laa~