NDP!

I must say the NDP was so gerek-ness! Met sayang, her mother and her sister at eunos mrt. Then, fahd came. After that, we waited for zur, fadhil, faisal and nizam to come. Of course, sayang, her mother, her sister and i are so smangat! We wore red laa. Nyehaha.
Then, we waited for lina and her friend, nurul to come. It was so hot. Soon after that, both of them came and guess what? We had to wait for hafidz pulak..
Zur, fadhil, faisal and nizam were in the green section while sayang's mother and sister were in the yellow section. As for lina, nurul, hafidz, sayang and i..we were in the blue section! Everyone was separated..but still...i'm very sure everyone had fun there, kan?
Sayang i was so smangat laa. We sang the national anthem loudly. Nyehaha. OH! Sayang was singing one song softly then..suddenly, she sang "skies" loudly. I looked at her and said, "eh..stars lahh!" HAHA.

I was trying very hard to "seduce" sayang then she said, "eh jgnn...geli ahh." HAHAH. Then i said, "that's my motive laa." Guess what she said next? Okayy..This is what she said, "eh tk geli..steam ahh!" LOL..

the boy in front of us was using his hp with the plastic seh! whatever for?

NDP tix, anyone?

Gosh!

I msged lina yesterday to inform her of our meeting time.

Then..

she told me that her bf and her friend is also going for NDP.

haha.

Her bf is supposed to be the performing but he prefer watching rather than performing today.

nyehaha.

THEN!

Botak just called me to say that he got 2 tickets.

N he asked who wants to go.

So i called the people that have been asking for tix from me.

Of course..they are so happy.

BUT..

I'm sorry to those who asked for the tix btu didn't receive even one.

I gave it on first-come-first-served basis ah people.

So to iyloooooooo...

i'm so sorry again.

She asked me for the tix but there was so many people who asked before her

so i had to give it to them.

Sorry eh.

=)

Chatting with sayang now

She said her brother got 2 tickets too

Now..

i have to call the people who wanted the tickets.

Maybe kak sita and abg kamal going laa...

so here are the people going...

.

.

.

.

.

.

me.

lina.

hafidz.

lina's friend.

siti hajar.

siti hajar's mother.

siti hajar's sister.

zur.

fahd.

fadhil.

nizam.

and lotsa people laa.

Rainbows appearing outside the window.

Phew! I'm so tired. Ermm..let's see. School as per normal today and we ended bb fin 1 hr earlier. Oh! Before bb fin, went for lunch break with aini, elenda and jarrett. Bebeh joined us too. So sweet of her kan? AWW..Thank you bebeh! I love u byk2. Heh.

After school, went to FBI lab to print some notes and sayang came too, soon after that. After printing my notes, both of us went to astro turf to meet the guys. The purpose of sayang coming down to tp is to get the NDP tickets from fadhil but in the end, fadhil forgot to bring the tickets. Sayang and i stayed to watch the guys played soccer and then, we were very hungry so; went to ITAS to eat. We had some heart to heart talk and i know she understand what i'm feeling cos she's going through the same thing. Kan sayang?

The guys and us went to TM but we went separate ways after that. Sayang and i went to mc to use the laptop while the guys went to buy something. Not long after that, fadzly msg me to ask where we are. Sayang and i left before the guys cos we had some 'important' things to settle. HAHA.

Gosh! I forgot what else i wanted to blog about. ERMM..Oh i know! I was on the way home when i received a call from home.
ME: Hello.
Li: Kau nak aper? (read: what u want?)
ME: Kau yg call aku. (read: u're the one who called me)
Li: Otak kau. Kau yg call. (read: your head(or brain). u're the one who called)
ME: Alar..takpelah. bye. (read: nehmine la. bye.)
So who called who seh? I still can't find the answer.

Yes. Have i mentioned? I saw syafiq, the secondary tuition friend, in the bus. He looked so smart but yet so simple. His hair also looked a bit more..neater? Hmm, yeah. But too bad..he didn't see me. Or else..i know he will be very excited and er...mad? HAHA.

Sorry people..i really have a lot to talk bout today. Bear with me kay. Anyway..When i reached home..i was shock by the news that bapak told me. Kakak (not the same mother) just gave birth to another son. After 9 months of not contacting us, his husband called us just to inform about that. I don't know if i should be happy or mad or sad. I'm happy that there's another people in our family. I'm mad that they only contact us for that. I'm sad that i have one more people to call me aunt ija. Damn it! That means..now i have 2 nieces and 3 nephews. Cool, yes? No?

Remember i have 2 tickets for NDP? In the end..the 2 tickets go to sayang. She's going with her mother. And now..zur told me that he's going too with fahd. He got the tickets from his relatives. N he has another 2 extra tickets which maybe rudy and fadhil will be going. AND AND AND.. Wan has another ticket..maybe he's going too. COOL KAN? At first, no one wants to go but in the end, the whole group is going. haha. I still want bebeh to go but she doesn't want so i shall not force her..heh.

During bb fin tutorial, jarrett was making a fool out of himself. He tried to irritate everyone esp me. He tried every ways to make himself talk in hong kong accent. Lame, isn't he? Well, he really made me laugh my ass off today. Nyehahaha.

I'm sorry again. I'll make sure this will end soon. Heh. I wanna say sorry to iyloo cos i can't give her the NDP tickets. Someone have asked for it earlier laa. Sorry eh.

When i close me eyes

"u.. i nak jadi ur matair" That was what i received from a friend whom i've lost contact quite some time ago. Haha. Come on laa. Don't be silly. I know that he knows me very well that i'm not gonna accept anyone for now. I just don't have any feelings for anyone now. After being rejected, he said, "no la..kidding." What was all that about? Was he trying to cheat me or something? Sometimes ehh..it's really difficult to undertstand this type of people laa.

Anyway, i met bebeh again today and i must say i'm very very delighted to see her. Whee~ She's so nice tau. She waited for me till i ended the group meeting with grace yap. So sweet of her kan? Gosh..I don't want to sound like some les. Hee..

I still don't understand..

Why i can't get over you..

Even though it's been almost 9 months since we went our separate ways.

I think of you so much that i dun even bother to find a new "friend".

That shows how much i need you.

How much i long you to be here, to be by my side.

So near but yet..so far

Spend few hours after school to finish up the use case narrative and editing of the BPM project. I was all alone with some of the classmates which i'm not close to. Suddenly, "1 new message received." YAY! Bebeh msg me. She wanted to meet me while waiting for fezal. Since the lab that i was using is going to have a class, i went out to look for bebeh. She was walking towards the lab. YAY! I met bebeh. Went to the toilet. N i realised something bout us. We were wearing a black shirt with white tube inside. HAHA. Black slippers for me and white high heals for her. BLack and white day ehh. Heh. Went interchange with bebeh to top up my card then i accompanied her to take bus 18. I'm just so happy to meet her. So so happy..

Mother was being extra nice today. She wanted to feed me when i was about to eat. But well, i wanted to spend some time eating alone so i ignored her. HEH. Then, she told me not to talk bad things bout Li. I just hate it when i'm eating and people will start nagging. It's like as if there's no other time to talk. The thing is..i hate it when people disturb me when i'm having some quality time with the food. Heee.. So anyway, i just showed my 'i'm-not-happy-with-what-u-just-said' face and she said.."mak cumer nak betulkan jer." (read: i'm just trying to correct u.) Now i get it! She's being nice to me because she wants to find fault with me. AHH! Now i know.. Alarh. I don't like it when people say things that i don't do. I mean..i do talk bout Li but that's the truth per. It's not like i said something which is so not him kann. I think i better keep quiet from now on when the aunties and uncles ask bout him. I'll just tell bebeh bout him, like what i just did just now. LOL.

Oh phyllis, i just realised what u said was true. Everyday, without fail, i always have a fight with someone. Heh. Yelahh, pasal aku jahat per.

I was sitting with eugene that day and suddenly he said, "i think this song suits u." Hmm, u guys think so?

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life. . .

Keep on taggin people! =) TATA LOVELIES!

Once upon a time.

I still don't get it why u called me buruk siku. It shows that you don't understand me and don't even know me that well. All i wanted to do was to be fair to everyone and not make them fight over that tickets. AND knowing you, you called me a buruk sikuu! I mean i don't mind u calling me that but the time u called me that is just so not appropriate. I was mad at zur for saying that i was rushing things. EH HELLO! I just wanted to make sure that someone is going for the NDP! I don't want the tickets to go waste laa! It's already good enuff that i wanted to give the tickets to them but i'm still the one who have to 'beg' for them to go. Is it that difficult for them to decide whether to go or not?!

Anyway..on a brigther note. Botak came home yesterday and the sight of him just makes me smile. HEH. However, he looked a bit weird. He just stared at me while i was eating. I was wondering if he found out my secret. Hafidz, lia's bf knows him and he threatens to tell botak my secrets merely because i didn't want to tell him some stupid secrets. HAHA. OH! After eating, i watched tv and suddenly, botak sat beside me and said, "ija..ni love bite ke scratch ar?" *showing the mark on his neck* So, i 'examined', yes examined, and said, "no laa..mcm scratch jer ah." Then he smiled. HAHAH. I know why he looks so scared. I'm very sure his gf has given him that love bite and so; he's scared that his another gf will be mad. NYEHAHA.

Oh puhleasee..

Puhlease!!! U're pissing me off la, boy. I can't take it anymore. We; my ex and me just argued on some silly things. He was saying that i'm kinda childish to understand his relationship stuffs. HUH?! ME? I'M THE ONE WHO'S BEING CHILDISH? U're funny. I thought u are the one who's being childish? Telling me ur SAME OLD problems for the past..say, few months. If that problem that you mention really did exist, why don't u jsut go talk to her about it? Why are both of u still on good terms? I mean..u said that u're sick of her and she doesn't even care bout u anymore. Doesn't that means that both of u are not on good terms anymore? N i don't believe when u say,"let nature takes it course." I know you very well. I know that u're flirting with another girl and i know u're lying to me about ur relationship. U did all that to make me sympathise u. I know all that cos..u wanted to come back to ME! Don't u ever think that i can ever fall in ur trap once again. NEVER!
N to think that u made me hate you more by proving to me that u're 2 diff kind of person. U're just a poser, loser! Saying that u hate mat rep so much. Look at urself laa boy cos u're one of the mat reps. I don't hate or have anything against mat reps but i just hate you!
I still don't get it why u must tell me u've got a very big problem when i always see ur gf is just so happy with u. I know u're lying by telling me that she dun even care bout u! U're telling me all this just to make me feel that u're so in the innocent state. FUNNY IS IT?!
Sorry eh people..this guy is really making me go mad seh. I know i should tell him the truth about what i think of all this but trust me, i told him all that. N his reply was.."okies." Can you believe it? He don't even know when u're being sarcastic to him or when u're mad at him.. All he will reply is.."okies." For god's sake, change la boy. U're really getting on my nerves.

Oh well, enuff of that freaking guy. I woke up feeling very fresh and i just plastered a very big smile on my face but..someone just spoil it by saying some harsh words. So; i remembered khaii's advice and i blast the music till father could only shake his heads. Heh.
I need my friends now. Hajar? She's down too. Fathin? She's at fara's chalet. Khaii? He's busy with studies. I seriously need someone now!

I FEEL LIKE SHOOTING MYSELF. *BANG*

Weird people and that's my **

The minute my nick appeared online, he will go "mad". He will pm me and ask me all sorts of question. Hey! I'm not in the mood to talk laa, no mood to talk to u. You wanna know why? Okay, let me tell u ehh. You once cheated my feelings and no, it's not that i can't get over it. It's because the way you cheated me is so...evil. I thank god cos you don't msg me anymore at my hp. I just hope you can move on too. Oops! I'm sorry. You've moved on but..u're dragging me along. I hate it so much now when u keep pm-ing me in msn. It's rather irritating when you have nothing to talk to me but you keep wanting me to reply to you and the only way is for you to ask the same old question over and over again. OH! And i know u're lying to me again, till today. I know u're fcuking happy with ur new gf and i know that's the truth. The thing that you lied is..you keep having problems with her. Oh well, maybe it's true but it's not possible that each time you chat with me, you have problems with her. To think that you actually make it so real. I know my feelings is true; that you are just trying to make me sympathise you with your situation now. Yeah, i know my feelings are true because..i know you inside out. I know when you're lying and when you're not. Weird kan? But well, you're my ** and so; i love to observe you. The thing is...i don't know your motive for creating the story that you keep having problems with your gf. I mean..i assumed that you're trying to make me symphatise u but i don't know if that is true. I just don't have the idea why you even bother to chat with me.

Well, on a brighter side, i met bebeh today and I'M FREAKING HAPPY! We didn't really go anywhere but just to eat and look for the birthday girls' present. That's already good enuff for me. At last i get to go out with her after..erm.. i don't know how long. Finally, i get to listen to her laughters and see her smile. That's enuff for me laa. Thanks bebeh! I love you. woohohoooo

Oh did i mention? I got back my thumbdrive. Thanks to miss lock. ERR. I don't know who she is but..if i'm not wrong, she's one of the CMSY teachers. She passed the thumbdrive to chor boon and he passed it to me. I'm one happy girl now...TRALALALALA~.

There's not even a day that past when i don't cry my hearts out for you.

You know i don't want you;

but i need you.

I know i looked as if i moved on after 8 months but trust me,

i'm suffering in every inch of my heart.

I'm very sure that i don't want to have you but,

the mind keeps thinking of you.

And so; i let the days past but at the same time, i'm still hoping for you.

I made myself busy with all the projects and meeting my friends in order for the seconds to tick and go.

I'm broken but i'm still hoping. . .

"MS I-KNOW-EVERYTHING"'S DAY!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO IFFAH!

WAHH. DAH BESAR SEH DIER.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

HOPE YOU'LL MAINTAIN YOUR "MS I-KNOW-EVERYTHING" POSITION OKAYY.

Yesterday, had some serious talk with sayang. Told her bout what i felt bout her, the bestfriend and some other people. After much talking and pouring out the feelings, we finally understand the situation. I came to the conclusion which really made me feel much better. Hmm, after that conclusion, it actually made sayang and me, came to another topic which both of us love and that is; marriage. HAHA. Well, sayang is so eager to get married, have children etc etc. Well, that's part of the reason she took ECH course. But to get a child, we have to do that THING right? Yes, i'm afraid of that. Hahs. I just can't imagine me getting married and doing all those stuffs. And another thing.. i can't cook. Although i'm an F&N student, i just can't cook. UNDERSTAND? HAHAHA. Oh well, i'm so out of point. I just wanted to mention bout the chat that we had. And so after chatting with sayang, it reminded me of bebeh. I REALLY MISS HER! I REALLY DO. I don't know why but i can feel the gap btwn us. We don't sit together during lectures. We don't meet after school. We don't meet during weekends. I know i should try to find sometime to go out with her, just like the old times. Phew! ERM...What else ehh?

Oh well. I miss my friends. Iffah, bebeh, sayang and some other girls. ERM...As for the guys, i don't really miss them cos i get to see them almost everyday after school. Why? Cos i've been hanging out with them these past weeks. I've not met the girls for more than a pathetic month kan? Alarh. I miss bebeh the most laa!!!! I wanna hug can? AWWWW.

It's been a long long time

It's saturday and i'm supposed to be out with either the friends or family but no, i'm still at home. No plans and i'm damn bored now. What did i do from the time i woke up? Bathe. EAT. EAT. Watch tv. EAT. Chat. EAT. Yeah, that's it.
I'm chatting with hanafi, rudy and fahd now. I didn't know hanafi can be soo merepek seh. I thought he's the kind who only knows how to laugh to people's joke. But....looks can be deceiving eh. N he's sarcastic too. LOL.
So, i waited for a call/sms from that someone but..i'm sad to say, no msges from him. I guess he's busy or too tired to even msg. Hmm. I thought i can ask him out today but too bad.
I thought of asking the friends out but i doubt they will agree. Hajar will not want to go out with last minute plans. She'd always wanted to plan earlier. Fathin. She's always out with her family during weekends. So, i'm left with the guys. Rudy and hanafi prefers to stay at home. Fahd, zur, nizam and fadhil just came back from gym. So, i guess they are tired laa. Hmm. The cousins. I think lina is busy with her friends. So, there goes my plan.
-_-"

I was hurt and now, i'm feeling the same thing.

It's weird but..i'm feeling the same thing again. The feeling that i had a few months ago. Yeah, when i broke up. Everything just came crashing down n i felt as if i'm left with nothing. No one was on my side. The things that i have done, means nothing anymore.
I cried listening to people talking bout it. I cried thinking what wrong i've done. I cried searching for it. I cried for not being able to do something bout it. I cried knowing that i was being so silly and careless. I cried asking myself what wrong i've done to make me lose that precious one. Yeah, that's what i'm feeling right now. If i were given another chance, i would not be so careless. I won't, serious.
OMG! To think that i treat my thumbdrive like as if it's my bf. HAHA. Yes, those are the feelings that i'm facing right now after losing my thumbdrive. It's the same feelings that i feel when losing someone special.
Okay. So i want to apologise to my friends if they happen to be 'popular' after this. Why? Cos i have all their pictures in my thumbdrive and if their pictures happen to be in any websites or any public places, i'm really sorry. I didn't do it purposely. I wanted to reboot my comp so i transfered all my files, pictures and some confidential stuffs into the thumbdrive. N now, it's all gone. I'm just afraid that person will 'spread' the confidential thing to the public. =(

I want to breakdown again. Can anyone help me, please?

THUMBDRIVE MISSING IN ACTION

I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE.

I REMEMBER USING IT AT THAT COMPUTER.

VICTOR HELPED ME LOOK FOR IT AT THAT COMPUTER BUT THE GIRL USING THE COMPUTER SAID SHE DIDN'T SEE ANY THUMBDRIVE.

AND....SHE WAS USING THE SAME THUMBDRIVE AS ME.

WITH THE LANDYARD AND OF THE SAME BRAND.

BUGGER!

Erm. Received a msg from shabir early in the morning. He told me not to miss him while he is in camp. Yeah, he started his NS yesterday. I told him not to miss me too. Heh. AWWW. I'm sure gonna miss him esp his phrase, "sama ah dgn...". I'm gonna miss his stories, his unique laughter and byk2 lagik laa. Nehmine, 3 months is gonna past real fast. REALLY.

I remembered that friend of mine while i was in CMSY lab and so, i msged her. However, she showed me that she was really mad at me. After much asking, she told me the things that she's been keeping it from me. Well, i assumed she didn't tell anyone. Heh. So, she bombarded me with all the words without thinking bout my feelings. Yes, i know i've hurt her but that doesn't mean that she can hurt me back per. Maybe she didn't realise but to me, she's just like accusing me. Enough of this. I don't want to make myself cry again.

Received another msg from zur in the afternoon. He said he had holiday. " Accident" holiday. HAHA. Noo laa, he just skipped all his lessons. He wanted to come down to tp but most of us end late and since i end quite early, i was supposed to meet him. However, when i end my lesson, he was still on his way. I called rudy and he has end his lesson but was FORCED to play captain's ball. So, fadhil and hanafi came to meet me. They told me that they are going to watch movie and asked me to tag along. Hmm, since i've got nothing to do, i tagged them. Met zur at tm and waited for rudy, hazwan and rudy to reach before watching the movie. We watched superman and i must say, it's quite a good movie. I give them 3 stars. OKAY?

I must say that today, i received a lot of msges from different people. In the morning was shabir, then that friend of mine. In the afternoon was zur and then...at night, khaii and fadzly.

Okay so, khaii msged me. I wanna thank him so muchhhhh for msging me. It's weird but he seems to know when i have problems and when i'm happy. Whenever i'm having any problem, he will always msg me to check on me. HAHA. Superb ah that boy!

Fadzly msg just to ask questions on how to woo that girl. I know that girl but i don't know how to woo her laa. I mean, i can help lah but i don't know if my help will help you. HAHA. Anyway, after much help from me, he told me to send a goodnite msg to *****. Can you believe me? Funny eh? Kong asam nye bdk.

Alarh people. My entry today is so boring. I just wanna waste my time in this BPM lab. HAHA.

Ader hot news tk korang?

Ader citer2 tk untuk aku blog?

HAHA.

Aku dah betul2 boring ni.

Aku blah ah.

Story of my life

I don't know how i should start this entry with. I'm just so speechless. I felt so hurt. I thouhgt you understand me and knows that you are everything to me. I thought you know that even though i'm with my other friends, i still think bout u. I don't know what struck u and you had those feelings which made me feel that i have done nothing to be considered your good friend.

I have always thought you as someone that is so special to me. You never fail to cheer me up whenever i'm down. Yes, we've been together through thick and thin. You were there to help me with my family problems, relationship problems. You were the one who was there for me when the other friends just went 'missing'. Maybe you don't know but i'm just gonna let u know that you are everthing to me. N yes, i mean it. You are the one who makes me feel like tomorrow will be brighter than today. You made me change my mindset. You made me think that my live doesn't stop here. I doubt you realise all that.

Just for that one moment, u said u were dissapointed with me. I don't know what made u feel that way but i'm sure u're totally hurt by what i did. I know i dissapoint u but i've got no choice. The guys were the one who insisted to go to that place and i had no choice. I had to treat him and so, i had to follow them.

I tried to put myself in your shoes and somehow, i had the idea what you are feeling. However, i just wish you to put yourself in my shoes. I'm not asking for sympathy but i really hope you can understand my situation at that time.

I don't know what else i must say or do to show you that i didn't mean this things to happen. I guess, telling you everything bout what i feel/ think of u is like as if i'm uterring bullshit. If you think that i'm just trying to make u feel guilty or end this kind of situation, then u're totally wrong. I want you to forgive me and be together with me forever. Cos, u've been my pillar support.

I really hope you can forgive me cos i really need you. I guess i won't be disturbing you for the time being cos i know you hate me that much. I'll still wait for you to forgive me kays.

EH PEOPLE, HATI AKU SAKIT MCM AKU BREAK SAK. HAHA. PELIK EH.

Sorry. . .

Okay. I've deleted the previous entry due to...some reasons. I'm very very sorry for the lack of updates. I didn't have time to on the computer, go to blogger.com and sign in to my a/c. So, to make it up, i shall start from where i stopped. Fair enough, yes?

Tuesday..i'm not sure of what happen. errmmm. if i'm not wrong, i stayed in school to print some notes. yeah, i think so.

Wednesday..had school as per normal and did my project for a while after that. Met zur, rudy, fadhil, fadzly and muz at the astro turf to watch them play soccer. Then, we headed to ITAS canteen to eat. I just can't believe it but the guys are much more kaypo than the girls now. The guys asked me a lot of questions/ secret during our secondary school n i had to answer almost all the questions. Went home at 8 and everything at home was just so fine and i know i should thank god for that. phew!

Thursday...bebeh wanted to meet me cos she misses me. Heh. So we went to itas canteen to eat and planned to go to tm to just walked around as usual. However, the plan was cancelled when we waited for zur who turned up 2 hours late. Bebeh cancelled the plan as she said that she was already sleepy. She left me alone with rudy. While waiting for zur, rudy and i played truth or dare. I swear that rudy's questions are soo....stupid like..."why do you have a crush on ******, who is so kental?" HAHA. When zur finally came, he was with nizam. We went to habibi to eat but somehow, i didn't like that place so i just ordered my drink. Fadzly and the fadzly senior came too. While i was enjoying myself listening to the guys talking bout football, shabir called. He wanted to meet me and he said he was already on his way. So, the guys and i took the bus and i alighted at the interchange while the guys alighted at nass to meet fadhil. Met shabir and then went off to city hall to meet lina and hafidz. We met for like...1 hr and then went home. I didn't know the motive of us meeting but according to shabir, lina and hafidz missed the both of us. HAH. As if ehhh...

Friday...End BB Fin early and then i followed elenda to do her project. Aini and phyllis was there too to help. An hour later, saw fadhil and he 'dragged' me to follow him to meet the guys. They were playing soccer again at the void deck. Eh no, it was not really soccer. It was more to wrestling soccer. HAHA. Then, went to cs to eat at long john and then they went off while i met lina and hafidz. OH! In the bus, i saw one cute boy who looks so neat and macho and smart to me. BUT..I find him a bit too smart for me. I like kental ones laa.

Saturday. That is today. Went out with lina to take my clothes at geylang and then we went for shopping. I only bought one shirt and that's all. Then, the stupidest thing was...we wanted to go to city hall but we alighted at bugis. Wah. I was about to tap the card when i realised that we were at the wrong station so we went down to board the train again. Heh. Walked around suntec and then made our way to kallang. There were fireworks and one thing i realised was, the people who went to the parade didn't receive any bags. They were only holding on to kiddy palace's plastic bags n some balloons. WHY EH? Met the aunties and unlcles including acoi to eat and finally, home at last.

Phew! I typed without stopping. N do i get any rewards for that? NO? Cool. BYE PEOPLE.

The imaginations running wild.

Umm. So i've got my BPM and CMSY marks. I'm quite happy with BPM and as for CMSY, the marks is an expected one. I think i really have to start concentrating when chor boon is teaching. Anyway, speaking of chor boon. He was teaching us something during tutorial just now and out of nowhere, he mentioned bout soccer and his wife. So, the class asked, "Cher, u're married?" Then he went blank and answered, "Do i look like as if i'm not fertile?" HAHAHAHAH. I can't stop laughing. Okay, so it's not funny to u, but to me, IT IS! His face is very funny lah. Even when he don't make jokes, you will still laugh when you look at his face. HAHS.

Yeah, so i was having an emotional breakdown since yesterday. Umm..i don't think i should mention the reasons but i really hate it when that mood comes. Unfortunately, bebeh became the victim. She talked to me in msn but i just ignored her. It was unintentionally okayy. The other friend called at night and tried to cheer me up and i think i should thank him cos he really tried his very best to make me laugh even though i laughed sarcastically. Heh. The morning came and i still had the same mood and i was so pissed with myself. Elenda became the victim when she tried to disturb me. Bebeh became the victim too cos i didn't really talk to her except when she asked for my marks for the term test results.

After school, i went to FBI lab to print all the notes that i'm supposed to print like a few months ago. Aini left cos her boyfriend wanted to meet her and so there was uyanga, jen and yong shearn left. Jen, being the great joker, made us laugh with his intelligence. Funny? Hmm. After that, i tried calling rudy to pay him the chalet thingy but somehow, i say him at the stairs near AS school and passed him the money. He suggested that we should go home together with fadhil and fadzly. But fadhil went missing while i was talking to rudy. Yeah, rudy tried to look for him while i sat one of the benches. Another moment, fazly (senior) came to rudy and asked a question which really strucked me. Not the question, but the person that he mentioned. I looked at both rudy and fadzly and they gave me that cheeky smile. So, i cancelled the plan of going back with them cos i'm just too scared to meet that guy. I didn't take 15 home. Instead, i walked all the way from school to tamp int. NO, i didn't take the shortest way. I took the longest way that you could ever imagine. I took 20 minutes to reach the interchange and it was very tiring. THEN, i slept in the bus bla bla bla.
Here i am now, feeling so sleepy. I miss my friend. I miss his laughter. I miss his smile. I miss his.. i miss everything bout him.

Today is 3rd of july. Another 8 more days and things will change a bit. I really hope he won't change. I really hope he won't be like the other guy friends. I just don't wanna lose another friend that is so precious cos it really hurts me than losing a...boyfriend. =(