Forgive me for the lack of updates. Been busy with exams lately. Now, i'm having holidays! Yay! Hmm. I'm very glad to say that i actually spend most of my time studying. If i were to take a supp paper, i wouldn't know what else to say.

CMSY was rather easy than i expected. I thought the paper was gonna be a tough one but no, i was wrong. I managed to complete the paper before time and i must say that i was able to answer most of the questions. So yeah, it was manageable.

BPM was next. WOOO. This was the subject that i enjoyed studying. From the start of the term, i didn't had much problem studying for this subject. The subject is really senang laa. However..the boring part is that for the paper, we have to draw a lot of diagrams. It's not that i didn't know how to draw them but i just find that by drawing the diagrams, we are just wasting time. The tutor just wants to see if we know how to draw the diagrams and why bother give us a very long question to draw it? It doesn't make sense rite? Alaa, forget it. I still could answer all the questions.

SYSA was the last paper. I still remember the term test that i took for sysa. I didn't study that much and i know nuts bout the systems development life cycle and etc etc. All i got was just a passing mark and that actually made the tutor gave such sarcastic remark to me. Now, i did study hard and all i could say was..i didn't understand the input and output design. Luckily, for section B, there are 2 questions. One of which was activity diagram and the other was input/output design. Of course i did the activity diagram. I finished the paper like 1/2 an hour earlier but decided not to leave the room since i will be meeting sayang and the rest at 5. Leaving at 4.30 will give me ample time to reach tamp int.
Overall, i do think that the papers are quite easy. QUITE. It's just the matter of whether u study or not. So, i really hope i don't have to take the supp paper. Oh god..please.

Okayy. I shall blog bout sunday. Went out with parents, mak jah's family and cik salamah's family to....sungai buloh. Oh please..sungai buloh is in spore okay! Look, i'm telling u this cos there's more than 1 people thought it's in malaysia. So yeah, it's just a very big mangrove. It's super duper near to the malaysia's hotel. I could see the danga bay from there. Imgine how near is that! Well, we got to see the mudskippers and lots and lots of fish. Oh yes! Even wild crocodiles! After that, went to eat at jalan kayu. The prata was sooo yummylicious! Yummehh!

Monday-Thursday. There's nothing special really happen except for the exams.

Oh yeah. I met sayang iffah shafinah iyliana and edel after today's paper. Can you imagine laughing from the time we met until it was time to go home. Imagine that! And ask we what did we laugh about? GAMES! Yes, we got so kecoh just because we were playing games. Haha.

My world. My heart. My soul.

That's none other then MY EVAN SANDERS!! Isn't he cute? Isn't he macho? Isn't he kental? Isn't he..everything? AWW. This is the guy whom i told elenda, aini and phyllis that he's MY NEW BOYFRIEND. They didn't believe anwyay. Yeah, he's not my boyfriend la. Only gundus will take my word. He's just an indonesian actor. Yep, mat indon. I remember telling khaii that i was watching the indonesia's channel and he said, "....kau dah jadik minah indon pulak." (read: ...u've become an indonesian girl, now) No laa. He don't look like an indonesian at all, rite? Not even like the typical indonesian man, yeah? Whenever i watch him acting, i will call for mother to see my hubby. Mother will just give me the weird stare and say "kau jgn giler laa." (read: don't be mad.) EH HELLO! At least i go crazy over actors rather than other guys. Besides, he's just an actor. If i were to be ' in love' with other guys, i know u wouldn't like it cos u hate it when i have a relationship with a guy. RITE? SO being 'in love' with an actor is not wrong, rite?

Anyway, catch him at SCTV channel every wednesday at 9 pm. He's mine so don't bother drooling ehh. Heh. I LOVE U EVAN SANDERS!

I meet u at home ehh nanti. Besok u nak ajak i gi shopping kan? Yay. See u hubby. Haha. Aku dah lebih2.

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Thank you so much. =))

1st paper done.

Today was the first paper for the exam. CMSY. I don't know how i should describe the paper. If i were to say it's easy, i can't get some of the answers. If i were to say it's difficult, i can answer most of the questions. We were allowed to read the paper at 9.25 and we started the paper around 9.40. The first person to leave the sports hall was at 10.20 am. So, u decide whether the paper is manageable or difficult.

Supposed to be out at aini's chalet but mother didn't allow me to go out so..i can't go. Aini..if u happen to be reading this, i'm really sorry. I'll give u ur presents when i see u okay? Anyway, enjoy ur time there. Hope everything goes on well. =)

Read sayang's blog and i laughed at her latest entry. Nizam tried to tell her that her eyes are so beautiful. Maybe, he's hinting sayang eh? Eh nizam, kalau kau suker kawan aku, ckp je laa. Aku bole tolong. Nyehaha.

I was sitting alone just now and i laughed out loud. No, i'm not crazy. I remembered hanging out with fadhil, rudy and the rest. Fadhil was singing..
Fadhil: mengapa harus ada SANG HITAM, kalau putih menyenangkan?
I emphasized on the SANG HITAM cos fadhil purposely sang those words out loud. The reason: he wanted to disturb rudy, of course. Don't get it? Alaa. U have to hang out with us sometime then u will know. Heh.

Meaning. . .

It's not that i'm bored but i just feel like updating twice today. Heh. Well, i was chatting with bebeh just now. She has not started studying and she's claiming that she's scared to take tomorrow's paper. She's just plain lazy. That was what she said, okayy.

Sometimes i wonder, why people are so weird, yet funny to me. Bob0y pm me in msn just now. He said, "ssshhh." I don't know the reasons for him to say that. In any case, my nick didn't offend him, didn't spill his secrets or i wasn't even talking loudly. So why must he say that? N when i askes him, he said, nothing. Dang! Another person to make me wonder is none other then the mostbeloved HATED ex's best fren. The minute his nick appeared online, he send me those msges, not giving me the chance to block him. He made me wonder why some guys are so desperate for love or is that just their natural gestures? Well, since i don't know him that well, i will not judge him so. However, considering the facts that the ex and his frens have exactly the same manners and 'natural gestures', i think he's just so depserate. N maybe, trying to be the MAN.

I'm still with my comp systems revision. Another 6 more chapters. I'm stuck on the topics on logic gate networks. It's a bit difficult for me to understand the diagrams.

No point bragging, u wun understand a single shit.

Where do i start, where do i end?

Let me update bout yesterday. Met sayang at tamp int at 2 and made our way to..TP, where else. Met bebeh at the school busstop. She met her teacher in the morning for some revision. Sayang was so unpatient to go to the canteen to get her lasagne. There were some greenview sutdents walking towards the IT school and she actually prayed that they won't go to the canteen in case there will be no seats for her. Don't worry la, the canteen is big enough and besides the greenview students didn't come just to eat, right? Heh.

After eating and laughing, we went to airport to look for a job at marry brown but..the manager was somehow delaying us so we sneaked out cos we didn't want to waste our time. Then, went to TM to do some job-hunting. Then, went home. The day went quite fast but i sure do enjoy bebeh and sayang's company.

Oh! Yesterday sayang and bebeh commented that i've put on weight. They laughed comparing me now with the time when i worked at BATA. They say i looked so skinny last time but now..it's totally different. They don't know why i was skinny last time. They thought my appetite was not as good as now. No, they are totally wrong. But still, i guess what they said was true. I've put on a lot of weight. Short and fat..g0sh! I shall work hard to lose some weight. I must, i will, i can..

That's for yesterday. For today..i woke up and realised i woke up later than the usual time. I was tired, i guess. In the noon, went to parkway parade alone to buy some things. My mood was very good that i was happy being alone. Walked and walked and walked till i realise i told bapak that i would only be out a while.

Went home and did some revisions. Yes, my first paper is tmr. While I'm getting butterfly in my stomach cos i will be having an exam tmr, s0me people are already having their holidays. Dang! Nevermind.. three papers and i will be done.

While i was doing some revisions, received a msg from a friend. Didn't really read it cos i was trying to concentrate. After a few minutes, i decided to read the msg and was quite shocked by the second part of the msg. The first part was some kind of greetings msg and the second part was that he informed me of his status now. That made me really shock. However, i realise it's just a normal thing now. What made me kept reading the msg was, the way he say it. I mean..i'm fine if he wants to tell me about his status but the way he say it is like as though i've been bugging him all this while. I didn't want to make him think that i'm upset with what he said so i replied by just congratulating him sincerely, of course.

Now, i'm smiling to myself cos of the dream i had a few days back.
I dreamt that S told my cousin to inform me that S won't be meeting me for the time being. Then, my cousin's bf asked me bout S. I didn't answer his question so my cousin told me what S wanted me to know earlier. After hearing everything, that made me want to make things clear. I told them that i won't lose anything except for a funny fren. I won't cry or kill myself cos i'm not even after him. N i will never ever go ga-ga over him.

Now, maybe the dream was somekind of a hint for me but sadly, i ignored it. I won't hold any grudges against him for making me feel as if i'm so cheap. Now i know what it means by easy come, easy go...

Not much left to say.

I feel much better after talking to a fren who goes through quite a same situation as me. Well, except that she's a bit lucky as both of them still do contact each other. She's much more the same as me. We don't really understand why our relationship end up this way. Imagine being so happy but after some time, break up for no specific reason. Hmm. It's like..the day starts to rain when the sun is so bright up. Oh well, no point cracking up the brain to think of the possible reasons of the break up.
It's the study week now and i've been spending these two days at home, mugging. Yeah, i did study okay. I'm left with 9/25 chapters left. I'm going to be done, real soon. I'm very glad to say that i'm meeting sayang tmr. She wants to go TP..for the lasagne, again. What's my task? Yes, accompany her.

I'm very sure lotsa people are gonna get bored reading this entry. I'm gonna talk bout someone whom i treasure a lot. So, if you don't wish to get bored, kindly make ur way out of this place ehh.

Staying at home or rather being alone always makes me think of the loved ones. This time i thought of someone who shall be named B. B is very close to me whom i regard as a family. We always do things together. Update each other with our stories every single day. Spending every second together very well. But then..whenever there's holiday or time when we do not get to see each other for more than a day, things will be a bit messed up. Let me explain what i meant. It's some sort like..the opposites of what i said just now. Yeah, we don't update with our stories. When B goes online, B either replies my msg late or even..just say that B's busy. When do i have the chance to update? Staying at home is a bit too weird for me as i, practically have no one to talk to. Therefore, i feel the need to talk to B. But then..i always have second thought. Not because i don't know what to say to B but because..i don't want to disturb B. I do not know if i might be disturbing B's sleep or even B's time. I know very well that B has B's family to spend time with since B's so close to B's family. B also have B's bf to spend time with. In other words, B's day is very packed laa. If i were to call B that means i would be disturbing B's packed schedule, rite? Alaa. What more if i were to ask B out? I'm afraid B might get bored with the places that i want to go. Besides, B do not like to chill out and waste time. B prefers to stay at home instead of wasting time if there's really no plans at all. Considering all these factors, how am i not going to get so worried? In order not to disturb B's time, i decided to just wait for B to contact me. Unfortunately, for the past two days, i didn't receive any calls or msgs from B. That's sad. Very sad.

Now tell me how am i gonna solve this messed up situation? Someone please help me. I'm in need of help. Please..Any help from anyone, someone or even everyone is greatly appreciated. In any case, even anonymous people can also tag at the board laa eh. Heh.

Sick in the heart, brain...

Achhooo! I'm sick. Coughing and sneezing since afternoon. Imagine how tired i am having to cough and sneeze every 10 seconds. Yes, i counted okay. I planned to go out alone today but i overslept. In the afternoon, the aunties came and i can't go out. I did some thinking yesterday (again) and i couldn't come to a conclusion. I mean..i know what's the end story of this but seriously, it's hard for me to face it. I think i'll just not think of him. If he were to contact me, i'll just treat him as a fren. Hmm. If this heart somehow misses him, i'm already prepared to entertain it but i'm not gonna let it change my mind. I'll just be one happy girl with no worries!

Okayy. Let's talk bout another issue. I now have phobias looking at guys. Well, here's the story. I was walking with bebeh and naqiah on friday. We were on the way to century square at the traffic light. There's this guy standing quite near us. He was standing at our right. I was looking at the angle he was standing and suddenly, i saw something! Damn. I didn't purposely look at his pants but..it was just so obvious. Yes, u guessed it right! We saw his thing. No, bebeh didn't see it. Only naqiah and me. Gosh! I just felt like fainting and vomiting after that but i controlled myself. Haha. I think that guy purposely put his thing outside so that people could see. In other words, he purposely want to let people see his thing laa. Why? Cos, if he forgot to zip, that thing will be sticking out from the zip part. But no! That thing was sticking out from the button part. Aiyaa. I don't know how to explain but if u guys get what i mean, then good. So, i told mother bout it and guess what she said? "Why didn't you shout for the police?" HAHA.

HMM.
I miss khaii. I wonder how he's coping with his studies. I just feel the urge to contact him but i just feel that he's mad at me.
I miss *h****. I miss his laughter and also his crappy jokes. I miss him saying, "i don't want to hear i don't know" and "sama ah dgn." He's just too busy with his life now. I shall disturb his time sometime. Heh

I know that you know i need you but you're just too evil to even bother.

m0ve on..?

I'm at loss of what to do.
I thought things are done between him and me.
I thought I've moved on.
I thought I'm done with the past memories.
I thought...

I've always consult three people whenever I'm in doubt and whenever I have problems.
No, that doesn't mean I don't look for them when I'm happy.
I know that's so wrong.
I tell them everything.
I get so clear with them.
They are bebeh, khaii and sayang.
I talked to bebeh on the phone last few days.
I just felt like crying but I know I gotta be strong.
I didn't want her to know that I'm still weak.

Bebeh said I shouldn't be hoping too much from him.
Shouldn't hope at all, in fact.
Cos he's so over me and he's totally in love with another girl now.
Bebeh also said that it's okay if I still wish to contact him.
For sure..i have to treat him the same way I treat the other guy frens.
I should be grateful that he contacted me back.

A few days agoo, I msged khaii.
He said exactly the same thing as what bebeh said.
He made it so clear that I shouldn't be hoping anymore.
This time, I could sense that he is so firm with his stand.
I know that he wants me to be out of this silly problem.

On that very same day, I called sayang cos she said she had some important things to tell me.
I told her bout what happened and she kept quiet for a moment.
I know she feels for me.
Why?
Cos she's going through the same thing.
Same situation but with different people.

I understand what bebeh and most people are trying to tell me.
I know everything.
It's just that this heart of mine is way too stubborn.
This heart of mine don't even bother if it's hurting the soul at all.

I did some thinking while I was on the way to school.
Is it wrong to love someone who doesn't love you anymore?
No.
Am I so used to him being near me that I need him even when we have broke up?
No, we broke up 9 mths ago. I've got used to being single but..i love and need him.
Is it wrong to hope for someone you love?
No.
Must I still hope for him when I know he loves another girl?
No.
Must I still hope for him when for sure, he doesn't even bother bout me?
No.

I know I shouldn't be thinking too much of this thing.
It will harm me, somehow.
I won't force u to love me like u used to.
I won't tell khaii my feelings anymore.
No, no.
I know I can't do that cos I need him as much as I need bebeh.
I'm content that I still have my bestest buds; bebeh, khaii and sayang.
They are the ones whom keep me going.

I can accept that u're out of my life.
I'm glad that you were mine, once.
Thank you for everything.
=)

Reminiscing the past

How careless can i be? I've lost my thumbdrive before while i was during my project. I misplaced my hp and found out i left it in the toilet. Today, i realised my specs is not with me. I thought i left it at home. However, elenda asked bout my specs and i realised..i left it in the lab yesterday. Damn! My things must be cursing me for being soooo sooo careless.

Anyway, yesterday i went home early as i was very tired. Reached home and found out no one was at home. The sad part was that i forgot to bring the keys. What did i do? Sat outside the house for more than an hour. Sat at the void deck for another hour before the parents return. Imagine me wearing those formal wear and had to sit like some kid with no home. -_-"

Bapak and mother bought a lot of food yesterday and what did i do? Vomit at the sight of all the food. It's so unlike me. I slurp whenever i see food but not this time. I vomited. Now can someone tell what is happening to me?

Well, lethargic is the word for this week. My body is in pain. My bone which is a bit tilted, is giving me problems. My neck feel like cracking anytime. The "thing" that grew at my throat is killing me. I can't swallow things easily and to avoid mother and the rest of the friends from knowing it, i smile whenever i swallow food. Heh.

OH dangs! I need to do my java now. Toodles!

Time check- 9.07 pm. I just came back from school. The BB Fin paper was a tough one. Well, i think it's manageable but because i didn't study the convertible bonds, everything went so wrong. Oh well, but overall, i really hope i can pass. At least a B. Can? Heh.

I had a very long sleep yesterday. I slept early just to make up to the time that i didn't sleep the day before. I slept like a pig that i didn't realise bebeh msg me. No, i read the msg but i didn't remember reading it. Haha. When bebeh met me today in the LT, i realised i read the msg but didn't reply it at all. Heh. So sorry bebeh! I love u! Mwahh.

I'm done with sysa project. Tommorow is the bpm presentation. Presentation= formal wear. Dang! I hate wearing formal. The pants are so tight and i look weider than i always am. After tmr's presentation, i'm going to do the JAVA assignment. I really hope i can complete it before thursday. I know there's a lot to do but i'm just gonna pray hard that i'll be able to hand it in on friday.

Did i fight with khaii or something? I think he's mad at me. He didn't reply my msg after i "scolded" him. Dang! Stupid me. I shall wait for him to msg me laa. I miss him. -_-" Bebeh! Don't worry, i miss u too! U miss me or not?

Zombie

Having menses is already such as pain in the ass and stomach. What's worse? Feeling very tired but couldn't even sleep the WHOLE NIGHT! Cramps + sleepy + swollen eye = disastrous mizahh. Damn..

I'm in lab now. I just feel so weak. Menses really rock my day. I'm trying to do the JAVA assignment now but i don't understand a thing. Can someone help me, pretty please? Oh. I have conversation circle again, later. I guess this time i'm not really gonna talk. No mood and no energy. I think i better do my projects now.

TOODLES! =)

it's all haunting me back, seriously.

So what happens when u ign0re ur own feelings? Things will end up being in a mess. I ign0red my heart that much that i don't bother bout other guys. I ign0red to be in love. I ign0red the sufferings that my heart has g0ne through. Yeah, i was very mean. And i still am but, only to my heart.

The malay results was released today and i was very excited for my friends esp, khaii. I was so excited to know his results that i had the urge to msg him early in the morning. Fortunately, i came to my senses and managed to ensure myself that the results will be released only after recess time. However, by the time PRSP lesson starts, i forgot to msg him and asked bout the results. The time he msged me, i was surprised by his result. Why? Cos i've been telling him that he will get that grade and he didn't believe me. Still, he was dissapointed with the grade. Relax la boy. U still have another chance. Want me to give u tuition? Nyehaha. So, nasuha did well too. Considering that her english is superb, i must say that her malay result is g0od. Wahh. This means that she's good in both languages. Whee~ I tried msging another fren but she didn't reply so i tried another FREN. Aini made me call him but i was so nervous that i wish he didn't answer my call. Heh. Well, i couldn't get thru. Therefore, i msged him and..what else can i sae? He replied! Well, i feel a bit awkward to msg him but..i was kaypo what! Heh. ryn, if u're reading this, i think ur grade is okay but just retake ok. Maybe next time can get better grade then can take the batter one. Dun give up laa, k?

The day went quite well except that i feel so weak. Thought of going esplanade to watch fireworks but cancelled the plan cos the migraine was killing me. To rub it in, the migraine didn't stop till lesson ends. I had to suffer and cried bearing the pain in the bus. I hate it whenever i have migraine and i have to ride the bus. Damn! Well, reached home and had no mood to talk to anyone. Locked myself in the room and cried for no reason. No..i cried to make myself numb. Weirdo.

Received a missed call from HIM. The brother was using the hp so he didn't answer the call. Well, as soon i received the phone, i msged him. Soon, he called and damn! my voice was trembling. I was so shocked he called and considering the fact that i didn't talk to him for the past months, i felt a bit weird to talk to him laa. However, i did manage to catch my breath for a while and continue talking. I must admit that..i miss that voice and laughter. AWW. After talking to him, i just felt so cold. My nose felt so itchy and there were symptoms that..fever is on the way!

Mother and bapak are out at esplanade watching fireworks with the aunties. Li just went out with his frens. Botak..is in camp, maybe. I'm all alone at home. I need bebeh now! I want her shoulder. I wanna cry more, can? Bebeh, come home quick k and come online please.... =(

Mixed feelings, c0nfuse mind, ------- <3

Where did i stop at? Hmm..the fireworks at esplanade right? Yeah. Erm..the next day which was yesterday, went to watch fireworks again with sayang, rudy, zur, faisal and fadzly. Went out with sayang before that and we had fun together. While waiting for fireworks to begin, i had some serious talk with sayang. What did shee do? Yes, u guessed it right. She cried. Why? Cos last yr, on that day, we were still with our lovers. Yeah, i acted as if i'm strong. I didn't want sayang to cry even more so i just kept back the tears and let the heart tolerate the pain. One thing for sure is..time heals everything. I know that sayang knows what i mean and it shall be understood between us only kays.

Today, u know what day is it today? Know or not? You don't know? Dang! It's khairul anwar bin ibrahim's birthday! Yes, that mangkok boy. He turned 16 today! Aww... Happy 16th birthday, boy! Hope u have a wonderful day just now. Do u like the thing i gave you? U're getting ur malay results tmr rite? The result shall be b3. N i'm waiting for the treat. Nyehaha.

Oh well, i received a msg from that someone but didn't reply. Why? Cos i didn't know what to say. That someone called to ask if i receive that msg and i just said yes. I don't know why but i didn't have the strength to talk. He tried telling me those stories and all i replied was, "hp die rosak gaknyer." (read: his hp's spoilt, maybe.) N before he could go on to another topic, i tried to end the call. He only had the chance to say something bout tonite but all i could do was, smile. Yeah, as if he could see me smiling. Haha.

Chatting with shaz now. Well, a serious talk again, maybe? Haha. Well, more to pouring out of feelings. I guess all of you knows why we pour out our feelings, rite? If you don't know, too bad for you.

To those taking their malay results tmr, g0od luck people! Pray hard that u'll get distinction! I'll pray for all of you, okay?

Dah. I'm done.

3 2 1, BOOM!

Phew! I'm back again. Well, just came home from watching the fireworks. One word: superb! The fireworks were sooooo very coool. It lasted for exactly 11 minutes. I like each and every part of it laa. Of course, there were lotsa couples everywhere. One thing for sure was that..i'm happy the parents were with me. I'm happy that i got to go out with the parents after sucha long time. Therefore, i didn't had the chance to be jealous looking at the couples. Nonetheless, while lookng at the fireworks, some things just came flashing back to me. The national day will be tmr and tmr will be one yr after WE went out to watch fireworks. How i wish he could be there with me tmr.

I'm sure sayang also miss that day. The 5 of us went out during national day and even thogh we had some 'misunderstadings', we enjoyed each other's company too. Kan sayang? Well, it's all in the past. In the end, sayang, me and khaii at still good friends. YAY! Kiter mangkok, mangkok tingkat and pinggan mangkok per!

Tmr..i have lotsa plans but of course, i have to choose which one to go with. Most prolly, i'll go watch fireworks with rudy and the gang. I thought of going bugis or tamp before that.

K laa people. My eyes are feeling super heavy now. I want to sleep. TATA lovelies. Night2!
Happy advanced birthday to my beloved....
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SINGAPORE!
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Spore and malaysia

It's been only one day that i didn't blog n people are tagging for me to blog. I know u people don't miss my blogging but..miss me right? Nyehaha. Ok crap.

Let's start from saturday. Went out with bebeh and iffah. Sayang supposed to join us but she couldn't make it. Syafiqah followed us and everyone thought that she looked pretty on that day. Heh. We went to eat at habibi. Even though i dun quite like the food there, i'm fine with it cos bebeh wants to go there. I'll do anything for bebeh, laa! I love her wat! Of course, when the chikos menos meets, there's always be laughter every minute and second. The word for the day was, pekak. Imagine, bebeh and iffah talking to each other but they can't hear what the other pary is saying. So, there's a lot of "huh?" going around. Seriously, if i meet them, i can laugh non stop even though they are not making any jokes. Yes, that bad. Heh. After that, we went to TM to buy some things but end up, surveying things.

Then, i went to mak jah's house. Thought of asking lina out but we were supposed to go to mak bibah's house. Yeah, went there after maghrib and met the cousins. Gosh! We get to meet each other almost ever weekend but we do still miss each other. Heh. OH! When i was at mak jah's hs's void deck, saw fadhil, rudy, faisal, zur and fadzly. They were playing cards and when i wanted to go to mak bibah's house at 7 +, almost 8, they were still playing. Damn! That's long.

Sunday; today. Ermm. Kamal got engaged to his very long relationship with his gf. The girl's house is at ang mo kio but they didn't want to held it there. They held it at their johore's house instead. The house was nice. YAY! So, on the way home from the girl's house to mak bibah's house, the cousins made some music video and some tv commercials in the van. Yes, very small space. I was the videowoman so u can't see me there. Heh. It was really fun and i enjoyed it very much.

Before going to the girl's house, the boys were playing some xbox games and then sapian sapari whom acted in bara as JJ said to kamal/kadir that my hair looked like rahimah rahim. Rahimah rahim from spore idol not the suria's veteran star. Not wanting him to say that i look like her, i made my hair looked messier than ever. Heh. Sapian was very nice, anyway. I don't know how to explain laa but, he's just nice. I find him a good guy. N that doesn't mean i like him ehh!

Anyway, kak ijan helped me took this photo. I find the flowe very cute. It's the sugar icing thingy. heh.





This was taken in the van. The hair was very messy. Did some 'headbanging' laa. Haha.

hide and seek

okayy. Do u want to know a long-winded story or the main part only? I shall type out the long-winded story kay since i'm so in the mood of blogging. I heard u guys laughing. Yeah2..I'm always in the mood of blogging. Except that today, i feel like typing out a loooooong entry. Heh. So here it goes.

One day, A joined our class after graduating from her former school. Well, A joined our class later. At first, A seemed so enthu in doing all the projects and everyone thought that A is capable of working with most of us. However, after sometime, A proved to us that she is someone who is just so lazy in doing the group work. A only wants to do the individual work and A does not like to stay back to do proejcts in group. A prefer to stay back with A's friends to just waste time. A is in my group for SYSA and she sometimes, piss me off. Not wanting to fight over small matter, i just kept quiet and our group members tolerated all A's nonsense. Just now, when my group were printing our project report which is 100 pages, A left us for good printing the report all by ourselves. I didn't make such a big fuss out of it cos i know i wasn't the leader.

After BB Fin, A was supposed to stay back to do the powerpoint presentation with A's BPM group. The first few minutes, i saw A with A's groups. Unfortunately, A went missing for almost 1 1/2 hours. A made elenda, tai miao and xiu wen wai looked for her at the ITAS but A wasn't there. Phyllis and me was just wasting our time in the lab waiting for elenda, anyway. Elenda, who was constantly looking for her, got so angry and came up with an idea. She turned off all the lights and locked the lab's door. When we saw A walking towards the lab, we hid under the tables and kept quiet. A was so panic cos her bag was still in the lab. A tried going in through another door but we, being the clever ones, locked it. After minutes of laughing and hiding, we on all the lights. A and her fren came in soon after that. We acted as if nothing happened. N guess what A did? She took her bag and went to another lab? Elenda and tai miao called for A and 'forced' A to do the presentation. A was very reluctant to do it but elenda just had to force her to.

After those acting, xiu wen actually told phyllis and I that it was the most thrilling thing that ever happened in her life. Nyehaha. We all had fun. Tai miao even said, "this is what she gets for not attending all the meetings." HAHA. End of story.

Another story. Aini, eugene and i went to canteen to eat after BB Fin lesson. The teacher released us at 3.30 and we were hungry. I didn't had a proper lunch seh. Anyway, we were deciding on which food to eat when aini said something. Here's the conversation..

Aini: i see ur crush there.
Mizahh: Wah eugene! Got new crush?
Eugene: HUH? Whose crush?
Aini: Mizahh's laa.
Mizahh: Mine? Which guy seh? Haha. Aku tk ingat.
(Eugene knows malay, anyway. Cos he's a malaysian)
Aini: That guy laa.
Mizahh: Wahh! Jap aku ingat ehh.
Aini: Kau nampak tk?
Mizahh: Tak laa, serious seh.
Eugene: Oh! That one eh?
Aini: Ya ya.

Eugene walked near the place he was sitting and chose the table behind him. Tsk.
Eugene: Can you feel the heat?
Aini: Yahh. She's high now.
Eugene: Haha. I can feel the heat sia.

Crap laa. So, all the way while i was eating, i kept looking at him. No, his back side. Back side as in his back body. I was somehow sitting facing his back. Understand? Aini said he glanced at me and that actually made me happy. Heh.

I'm fighting with zak now. Over what? Which school is better. He says NP is better but i say TP is better. I won, at last. Why? Cos i said my canteen's stall sell all halal food. Nyehaha. Yay!

Reflect

YAY! I'm very happy to announce that i'm finally done with the 2 projects! My group completed the project on wednesday and were ready to hand in but vincent chew said that they extended the dateline till friday. Yesterday, jarrett bind the papers and then, i handed it in to the pigeonhole.
I'm also done with SYSA project! I completed the reflection at home and i was laughing my ass off while reading what i typed out. I find my reflection a bit of crap but..who cares. At least, i'm being honest okayy.

Phew! Enough of the projects. Let's start with what happened today. The bus was very late and we were caught in the traffic jam at ubi. While waiting for the bus to move, i just felt like alighting at the busstop and make my way home. Heh.

Reached school and i was already late for PRSP lab. Took the lift and then, went in to the wrong lab. Haha. Paiseh2... Kangkong is really getting on my nerves. He keep repeating the same thing and every time he talks, he will smile. -_-"
Now, i'm in the MWC lab. Some of the classmates are editing their work.

Oh! I want to go jogging every wednesday/thursday. Anyone wanna join? Nyehaha. I know bebeh won't agree if i were to ask her. Sayang? Alaa..She will say she's lazy. Heh.

I WISH I WERE TALL..!!

lame, funny, or insane?

i was doing my activity diagram when wei bao sent me a message. He asked me to go to this website, www.ramizah.youarelame.com . I was so amazed for a moment but then, i realised something. It was just a silly website. Try changing it to ur name..

N dun forget to comment at the tagboard okay?

What luck?

Was quite dissapointed that i didn't see the guy in the bus. However, thanks to bebeh. She asked me to wait for her at the bridge. While i was waiting, he walked past me. Whee~ He walked right beside me. Heh... Gosh! I feel like hugging bebeh when she came. But no, i just hold her hand and smiled all the way to the LT. *smacks shoulder*

During PRSP Lab, that teacher really got on my nerves. I can't stand it laa. He keep repeating the same thing. That was why i talked and he picked on me and said, "Why are you so active today?" Hello, everyone talked too okay. Not enough of that, soemone even said to me, "kenaper lelaki tu suker kau?" (read: why that guy likes u?). Don't u think ur words are a bit rude? I know that i'm not pretty and i dun have anything special that can attract anyone..but must u really say that? Does that mean that i dun deserve to be loved? I still have a lot to say but i know i will just hurt myself more. I had enough. I had enough people insulting me...

I want to live. Could you give me a chance?

OKAY!! The time spent to stay back after school will be paid off real soon. The projects are going to complete soon. I'm done with all the group work in BPM and also the individual works. That also means that i'm done with BPM project! I edited the swimlane just now and was quite satisfied with what i've done. As for the process improvement, i came up with a few ways to enhance the business processes. Phew! Now, i'm left with SYSA. I have only a few things left to do and that is 2 use case narratives and 3 activity diagram. I'm not really sure if i would be able to do the 2 use cases bcos it's rather a very difficult use case. Haizz...

Enough of that.. i'm now with some of the classmates in the class. They are also doing their projects so...i can hear all the typing sound hear and there. Heh. Elenda, phyllis, victor and kok lip are going for running at bedok reservoir later and guess what i'm supposed to do? I'm supposed to look after their freaking bags! They think that i'm some kind of maid eh? Well, i do look like a maid but i'm not okayyy!

I miss bebeh.. even though i just met her just now.
I miss sayang..i feel like crying in front of her.
I miss ******..i wanna hear his voice now.
I miss khaii..i miss his "motherly" kind of msg. Nyehahaha... =)
I miss my family...i want some family outing, can?
I miss..my life.

between the rain and tears

I viewed phyllis' blog just now and for once, i thought her blog song was very sad. I knew very well that i couldn't stand those kind of music for this moment but i purposely didn't close the window while i was doing the SYSA project. I let the tears roll my eyes. I let the tears touch my lips. I teared more when the tears touched the lips. I just couldn't help it.

"if i were a tear, i want 2 be born in ur eyes, live on ur cheeks n die on ur lips but if u were mt tear, i'll nvr cry cos i nvr want to lose u.."

"it's not who u're to the world, it's who u're to me. it's not how many time i say i cherish u, it's how much i really do.."

Those were the phrases thay he would whisper in my ears whenever i'm down and whenever he knew i felt like breaking down. I know these words don't mean anything to him now. I'm glad to say that i still keep his msges that he sent me about a year ago. I can't bear to delete it from my phone. I know that's the only thing i could have eversince he left me. I'm still confuse why things turned out this way. I'm clueless.. i'm helpless..i'm hopeless..

It's 7.25 now and i'm still in FBI Lab. I'm doing my BPM project and SYSA project at the same time. I started doing this ever since i came to school today and that is at 10. There's no lecture today so, i've been staring at the comp for the whole day. For SYSA Lab, we were allowed to do our project. The lesson was for 2 hrs and that means that, i have been doing my project other than listening to what the teacher is saying. Damn! I really need this projects to be done asap.

OH ANYWAY! I'm just sooooo soooo freaking happy. Like finally..eh no..for the second time... HE ASKED ME OUT! WOOOOHOOO~. Yah2...i'm mad. Not because he asked me out. It's because he's the kind of guy who rarely asks girls out and i'm very shocked this thing happened. Nyehahaha...

One more thing, bebeh asked her friend(her name shall not be mentioned) for the guy's name and now, i know his NAME! Yay! Yeah, big deal. Just his name. Well, today he didn't board the same bus as me. I purposely didn't sleep in the bus just to see him but too bad, he didn't board the bus. Very dissapointing sehh. =( BUT! I followed bebeh to refill her water in her bottles then i saw him! Whheee~~ I just can't stop smiling... =))

Sorry people. I got to continue with my projects now. I'm going off soon...

TATA! Don't forget to tag people~~